Marrying a Stranger

One - An Enlightenment

Here we go again it's summer vacation. I've been busy with my life since my older brother decided to get married. I enjoyed being the maid of honor. They thought I was just 18 years old when in fact I am 26. How's that?

Yeah, well people asked me when will I be the bride then I said nah I don't really see myself walking down the aisle wearing a white long gown. Not now may be soon I don't really know.

I am near finishing law school and preparing for bar exam soon. The pressure is on but I make sure I live my life happy and knowing my goals. I keep on praying for that yah know.

It has been 8 months since Paul and I decided to stop and permanently cut our communication for good and I am very much okay with that now. I met Paul online. He likes me and I kinda felt like I like him too. Things got so unclear when our communication failed. I decided to stop. Ever since I didn't hope to find another like him in the same chat box.

It was past midnight, I decided to chat some random guys online. I am used to do this and it makes me feel sawa na. that feeling of "palagi na lang" "same old" "okay? And so?" boys got really intimidated when I answer them fiercely. I just want someone to talk to. I am not looking for a boyfriend or so.

A 24 year old guy popped up. His name is Nick. He was nice and we got to know each other with the basic information of our age, educational background, dreams, goals, favorite food etc.

Nick: hi :)

Me: hi :) how have you been?

I was quite feeling close this time because back in my mind I can end our conversation anytime I want. I have the ill feeling na whenever I feel disgusted talking to this person I will stop.

Nick: I am doing great, what about you?

Me: I am good. Why are you still awake?

Nick: Hindi pa ako inaantok eh, ikaw?

Me: ako din eh nagpapantok sana ako

Our conversation went longer until I decided to sleep. We exchange facebook accounts since we were both using dummy accounts. I got no problem with that.

Two weeks after our consistent communication, we were comfortable talking to each other. With that, I told him what I truly wanted and he is good with it. I told him im not that kind of girl who easily falls for sweet words and if he falls in love with me it's his problem. He just sent me a big LOL. It takes a great wall of china for me to fall. He said he understands. Still we communicate.

He never told me about his family background. I only knew his name, age and he said he didn't finish college and tambay lang sa bahay. I did not have any off feelings for that coz he is so friendly and later on he told me that he stays at home and do online trading. I did not ask futher coz I am not interested of knowing it anyway.

He usually greet me good morning and I intentionally reply late in the afternoon coz I don't want us to be attached to each other. Marupok pa naman siya at siyempre noh ako din hindi ko lang sinasabi. Ayaw ko naman magmukhang pafall sakanya.

I get a little bit anxious because people just come and go like what the? I get it. Ayaw ko ng attachment hindi kami PDF file na kailangan maattach. Another part of me still curious. What is he?

Nick: hi :)

Me: hi :) how was your day?

Nick: Good. Natulog lang ako mahapon. Ikaw?

Me: naglinis ng bahay nag ayos ng books nagkalat haha

Nick: wow ang sipag mo naman nakakaproud.

Me: nah! Signs of adulting.

Out of nowhere he asked me to marry him. Since I don't take things seriously. I declined. I even had the courage to tease him.

Me: nagpropopose wala naman singsing!

Nick: sandali bibili lang ako sa tindahan

Me: yung may bato ha

Nick: anong kulay ba?

Me: gusto ko yung kulay diamond.

Nick: iyon lang pala ang gusto mo bat hindi mo sinabi agad?

Me: tumigil ka!!!

I stop making patol to his jokes. I just did that to entertain him. I don't know. I was bored okay.