I Was So Close

We were best friends. Soulmates. I .....was so close. Just like every other story, it starts at the beginning. When I met him I was unsure. But he was friends with Ava so I decided to take a chance. He was pretty cool and chill and that's something our personalities automatically clicked on. And I realized I actually really like him. We grew together and became really close. He was my best friend. In class, when we were assigned work or projects he would always want to be with me. It warmed my heart. We sat in our usual spot next to each other laughing and spending time with each other. I loved the way he smiled because it brought out his true emotions. My favorite memory was when we were at outdoor school and we were the last ones out of the river. It was my first time and I didn't listen to his directions so we got stuck and the lifeguard had to pull us in. We still laugh about that today. I noticed he didn't really talk with Ava as much but I guess that was good for me because I wanted him into me. Overtime, my crush for him faded away. And I found out he didn't like me anyway. I didn't like him anymore but I wanted him to like me. I know it doesn't make sense for me not to like him but I want him to like me. Because when you find out someone likes you even if you don't like them back sometimes it just feels good to know that someone likes the real you. That they like to be around you. The whole time I thought he liked me, he liked Ava.......again. It was the last day of school and he was sad because lots of people knew he liked Ava. I felt bad for him but also for me. It was a hard day. At the beginning of middle school I thought we could start over. And we did, but then he liked some other girl and told me all about her. I gave up on us, and our friendship. A few months later at Sydney's house she was blabbering about something then she said Chris used to like me. I was soooo furious, sad, confused, and filled with regret. I messed it up again. I was so close. 😑