20 years in counting

the first time

My name is rosa Rodriguez. Im 4 years old. Today my daddy is talking me to my aunties. He has to work so my cousin jarry is watching me. Jerry is like a big brother to me. He and my real big brother hang out a lot he is always at my mamas house.

"Rosea come on baby we gotta go" Thats my daddy he sounds kinda mad i should go to him. We got in the car and made it to my cousins house.
"Come give me a hug booger" jerry said.
"Jerry!" I screamed and ran to him giving him a hug. "Bye daddy!" I yelled seeing my dad rushing off to work. Me and jerry walked inside and i went to his room to lilly. My baby cousin. Shes the same age as my bratty little brother. He is 2.
"Rosa!" Lilly yelled jumping on me.
" hey lilly! what you up to?" I said while sitting on the floor next to lillys toys. "Playing with my barbies wanna join" we played for a good two hours now its nap time lilly is in her grandmas room. Who is also my aunt. Lilly is my cousin aron's girlfriend's daughter. Jerry is in the kitchen. I am watching thats so raven.
"Hey rosa come here." Jerry said walking into his room sitting on the bed. I stood up from the floor and walked to him. He pulled my arm so i was closer to him. I started shaking not knowing what was going to happen. He then put me on his legs and pretended to take a nap. I turned my attention back to the show. I started to get off of him because i was feeling really weired out. I felt his hand go on my hips making my eyes widden in horror. "Stay right here." He demanded. "Why?" I asked confused. " because im older and i tell you to" he said. I didnt argue i just did as told sitting with my back to him on his legs. He then grabbed my hips and started moving me up and down. "Wha-what are you doing?" I stuttered. I started to shake uncontrollably.

"Rosa! Come here" my aunt saved me. I got up like the bed was on fire running to her in the frount room.
"Daddy!!" I screamed seeing my dad i was so happy he saved me. From the monster. My dad picked me up and we left.
" daddy.." I started but then stoped
"Yes babygirl what is it?" My dad could tell there was something wrong.
"Can we get McDonald's?" I made something up and put on a smile. Why would jerry do that? What did i do? Did i do something bad?