ASH PROV
It was 2:37 when i was trying to hold back the tears, but it got to much so i ran down stairs to the place where i hid all my weed, pot,coca,achole, cigs and a spare blade if i needed it. I grabed some alchol and a cig box and ran up to the bathroom and shut the door, loud, i reopend the door to see if anyone was coming, the cost was clear. was i really going to do this? "yes" i say out loud. With that said i fill up the tub to the rim with burning hot water and slip in naked. My skin is numb and i cant feel it over the skulling hot water, but i dont care. All that was going thourght my head was want Ashton said last night "please be happy" "please be happy" "please be happy" so i was going to be happy. i grabed a cig and light it with a match and took a bottle of vodoka and skorfd that down. It was really strong, but whatever right?, i sucked on the cigerret and breathed out letting the smoke fill the room, i then took the blade i keeped in my bathtub and i was writting somthing i have no control over it, i just carved my skin, it said "be happy, dont do this" and on my other arm it said "ashton please stop doing this" and then i just started to slit my thighs, i loved how the blood would make a swerl down in the water and soon the bathtub was a bright red, by the way i loved this because it gets me out of my pain and i know i need it. But i soon stoped loving it when I heard a noise come from the out side of the door, but i didnt care anymore if i got caught. i was to drunk to care, "OH MY GOD" is what i heard and then i looked over to see Ashton steping towords me and then pick up a towle. He pulled up my naked body to stand in the middel of the tub, he picked my up in his arms and sat me down on the floor with the towle around my bloody body, and a bandaids on my thighs but not my wrists, he was reading my wrists witch make my panic, he kissed them and then my thighs. "why did you try and kill yourself" he asks well his tears mix with the salty sweat. "you said be happy" i say looking down, i feel his eyes on me then he lifed my head up "Luke i are a amzing person, ok, i love you so much and i dont care if you dont feel the same. but thats how i feel, and remember, you fall i fall." he said, those words sunk in my head. i looked up at him and he was looking at my eyes already. "i love you too" i say and then kiss him, we deepen tge kiss as the cloth that once was a wall inbetween us was now off of my body. He licks my bottom lip, i reject to let him in. So he grinds his hips up to mine and a moan slips out. he slips his tough im and i pull away from the kiss "sorry" i mudder and stand up. he grabs my wrist and pulls me close. "for what?" "for thinking suicide is the most perfict think in life" "thats ok, i will fixs you dont worry" "ok?" "always"
