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genesis pov:
since jay is still my bestie he dragged me out here to this party of one if his classmates. I'm currently standing there with my cup in hand and just dancing to the music. jay left me to go talk to his friends, and I'm just sitting here bored because I don't talk to anyone.

I'm avoiding eye contact and keeping my drink by me I don't have time to get drugged and have a train ran on me. jay finally comes back and hands me my third cup of alcohol. idk what this shit is, but I can trust him....right?

-fee hours pass-

it's well over midnight Kayla kept texting and calling me but jay took my phone. I'm woozy and dizzy, but I feel good. I'm dancing and having a great time. annnnnnd I'm drinking my 8th cup of alcohol I'm fucked up.. like fucked up fucked up.

I start feeling weird and I keep losing my balance and I can't stand up straight, and I'm incredibly horny. I gotta get home, so I can call Kayla. "jay I'm ready to go home." I say and I glance at the clock noticing it's 3 am. "not yet babygirl." he takes me to a room.

I think yeah I just need to rest for a while then I'll be good. I close my eyes and I hear the door close. I open my eyes and I see jay hovering over me. I try to speak but he shushs me "ssshhhh babygirl I know you missed daddy." now wait a damn minute I think... who tf does this nigga think he is.

I hear fumbling and other noises and i soon realize that his taking my pants off, and unbuckling his. instant panic sets off in me. I try to kick him and I try to scream but i can't. it's like I'm paralyzed, and my words are caught in my throat.

I really can't believe this is happening right now... like my best friend, the person who I loved more than I loved life it's self it's about to strip me of my... my dignity and my innocence.
he begins to rub my body up and down something I used to love makes me wanna vomit now. "oooh how have I missed you, you beautiful perfect angel."

no this nigga-... "what in the fuck.. why? what did I do to you.?" I ask as h takes my pants off my paralyzed legs. "you left me... for a dyke bitch. I gave you everything you could've wanted and more. I befriended ya fat ugly ads friend. I spent hundreds and hundreds of dollars on you. I gave you love. you take all of that away when you decided to be with that bitch."

"you're what they call a fake gay? a sike-a-dyke right?, I meaaannnnn how just one day you end up gay?" "you can t help who you lo-" I'm interrupted when I feel him roughly enter me. just like raw all just all at once. at this point I threw up. I begged him to stop and to leave me alone.

i tried to kick and scream but no one came to my rescue, instead he just sucked on my neck like a damn vampire. I just threw up and cried again... I couldn't believe the person who I thought who would love me forever and always would do this to me. after what felt like hours of him having his physical assault with me, he stopped. "now tell me babygirl are you still gay, or have you came to your senses and realized I'm you're soul mate after our wonderful time together?"

I don't answer I just look at him, and his looking down smiling like he is proud of his work or something. I just threw up again and cried. he fixed himself and left, and next thing I know is lights out.

I wake up in a unknown bed... who's house is this, I ask myself. I look to my right and my phone with a note beside it says: "had a fun night babygirl, but idk if you will remember bit I had a ball." i balled my face up, who tf is this I think.

damn I don't even remember last night all I remember is coming to this party and jay giving me a drink. "damn was I that fucked up to not have any memory as to what happened?" I asked myself. I get out of the bed, and I notice the sheets are red and I don't have on any pants.

"what in the fuck?" I whisper I found my jeans on the floor on the left of the bed. I put those on and grabbed my shoes, phone and car keys. I go home and I know something isn't right... like my body doesn't feel okay, like it feels used and abused.

I get home and I see kaylas car parked and I notice the time it's fucking 1 pm. I look at my phone and Kayla and my mom blower tf up outta my phone. I see in my reflection the red marks on my neck. "now I know I did cheat on Kayla. what in the fuck is really going on?" I asked myself. at this point I know something isn't right.

I just pull my jacket over my body and try to cover my neck more. I walk in to the house to be greeted by a furious Kayla. "where have you been?" she asked ever so calmly. "how'd you get in, I didn't see my mom's car." "well she called me panicking because you didn't come home last night and you were responding." "my bad I was having fun I guess." I shrug my shoulders honestly I honestly don't even remember what happened last night.

"why didn't you answer, it was over 12 hours before anybody heard from you." "honestly my bad I didn't mean for that to happen, I was having fun." truth be told idk what happened last night, but I do know that something wasn't right and I'm gonna figure it out.

I walked upstairs to shower and Kayla followed me. I took the jacket off completely forgetting about the marks. I took my shirt off and was about to take my pants off before Kayla grabbed my hand. she put my face in her hands and turned my face to the side trying to examine my neck. she turned it to the other side seeing the same marks.

she dropped my face and just shook her head.... "wow." she chuckles and the repeats it but drags it out more  "woooowwwwwww. " "damn man, this the kinda shit we doing now?" she asked. I just looked at her, I couldn't speak.

"okay so you cheat on me,at a party and don't you dare say you was drunk, that's the lamest excuse in the damn book. you knew what you was doing my nigga. wow just wow. so was it a bitch or a nigga?" she asks so calmly but her tone was a mixture of sadness hurt and anger with tears running down her cheeks.

I couldn't answer her because I genuinely didn't know. I open my mouth to speak but I can't I close my mouth, she's just staring a hole in to my head. "I don't know." she just laughs again with tears falling, then she walks over and punchs the wall leaving a big ass hole.

she turns to me "damn genesis you cheat on me and can t even keep it a hunit with me? first you ignore me, get drunk then fuck a random ass bitch or nigga... like wow. I didn't do anything to you but try and love you. but I guess this is my karma for when you cheated on jayln and we fucked... on multiple occasions. but hey what goes around comes around huh? well I hope you enjoyed your adventurous night.... as you can probably guess um this *she points between us* is done over with. when you're ready to sit down and discuss this like fucking civilized adults then call me until then don't day shit else to me."

she turns to walk away but I grab on to her before she can really walk away. "no please." I beg with tears running down my face. she turns to me and she's silently crying her eyes are all puffy and red and she looks drained. "please let me go." "no, look I'm sorry but I go honestly don't remember, I swear I dont." "I don't wanna hear that bum ass shit bro!" she snapped with still crying. "you did what you fucking did, now get the fuck off me bro before I hit you instead of the wall this time."

I let her go and watched her walked out, and possibly walk out my life forever. I just slid down the wall and balled my eyes out. the girl who I wanna spend the rest of my life with broke up with me. apparently I cheat and have no reconciliation about it. so that seems somone took advantage of me and I cry harder... I start to have some faint memerios about last night.

jayln kept giving me drinks in a few of them under bubbles and shut but I didn't mind it because I thought it was the bubbles from the alcohol.  I faintly remember going into a room but after that I can't think of anything else. I get irritated and mad and think did Jay- nooo he couldn't have, he wouldn't. as I'm thinking about it I get a text that makes my soul leave my body.

best bitch😎😝: hey babygirl I had a great time with you last night, here so you can watch and see out great time together.

*3 attachments*

I stare at it, and just cry even more if that's possible. I call liyah in the midst of me crying, and I can't speak I'm crying too much. last night comes back to be and hits me like truck. liyah just hang up but I heard her in the car and I'm guessing she's otw over here. I hear liyah come in and she just runs upstairs and hugs me while I cry into her arms.

if I misspelled shit.... idc it is what it is.