"Calista, wanna smoke?"
"Pass, Ry will be in our house tonight. Baka malanghap niya"ani ko
"So, di ka pupunta sa party mamaya?"
"Yeah, probably"
"Baka manghinayang ka"
"Why would I?Ry is very important"
"Venzel will be there"aniya na ikinagulat ko
"Anong sinabi mo Shen?si Venzel?"
"Oo, Tani told me. Calista, i know na dapat hindi ako manghimasok, pero think deeply, think thoroughly. Si Venzel nayan Calista, for the sake of that child, talk to him. He needs to know."
"Pero hindi yan ganun ka simple Shen, who knows baka may girlfriend na siya?i don't want to ruin his life"
"What the fuck Calista?bakit siya lang ang iniisip mo?paano ang anak niya?uunahin mo na naman ang gagong lalaking yon?ilang taon na ang lumipas, why can't you just fucking move on and think about your child?"aniya
Humina ang tuhod ko, sa nagdaang taon siya lang ang iniisip ko. Sa kalagitnaan nga ng pag iisip ko sa kaniya hindi ko na maisip ang sarili ko, my love for him is just so strong that i would do everything for him. Call me stupid, but that's what love can do to you
"Fix your chaos mind, think selfishly for the first time Calista" aniya at umalis na
Nakapag desisyon na ako na sabihin kay Venzel ang tungkol kay Ry, who knows baka may pag asa pa kapag sabihin ko sa kaniya ang totoo. Pero pupunta muna ako sa bahay
"Mama!"
"Hi baby"ani ko at kinarga si Ry
"Mama, let's play!"
"Sorry Ry, i can't. Something came up with Mama's work today, i can call Yaya for you if you want to play"
"Okay Mama"aniya at binitawan ko na
"Yaya Mely, please look for Ry while i am gone. And also he want to play with someone, please play with him for a while"
"Yes po Ma'am"
"Sige, aalis na ako"
"Okay po"
Umalis na ako sa bahay at nag drive ng kotse
"Ma'am hindi po kayo makakapasok kapag wala kayong Gray Card"ani ng guard na nakabantay
"Gray Card?what is that?"
"Kapag meron po kayo nito, makakapasok ka po sa loob. Pero kapag wala, hindi ka po makakapasok"
"Ah, so?May party kami ngayon in this club"
"Hindi ka po talaga makakapasok Ma'am"
"I said we have a par-" oh shit
"Let her in"
"Pero Sir baka po sa ibang grupo itong babae?"
"I said let her fucking in"that baritone voice, i know it's him
"Okay po Sir, sorry po Ma'am. Pasok na po kayo"aniya at pumasok na ako
"Thank you"ani ko at dali daling umalis para puntahan sina Shen ngunit bago pa ako makalayo may kamay na humawak sa akin
"Calista Arithan Ricafranca"
Shit, what is he thinking right now?
"Uh, yes?"ani ko at hindi siya tinignan
"Eyes on me"aniya sa malamig na boses
I look into his eyes, damn those eyes. Baka kapag nakakamatay lang ang tingin, patay na ako ngayon
"Let's talk"sabi niya at pumunta sa labas ng club
"Bakit pa niya ako pinapasok if lalabas lang din naman kami?"
"I want to be calm because i don't want to scare you, but shit my emotions are making me crazy. I wanna ask you, can you answer me honestly?"
"Yes"
"This keeps running on my mind for fucking years, and i want to know why did you fucking leave?why the fuck did you leave so easily?"
"Venzel, I'm sorry"ani ko at unti unti nang umiinit ang sulok ng aking mata
"I don't need that sorry Calista!i want to know why did you leave!why did you leave me thinking what's wrong, if i did something that could ruin our damn relationship!"
"Because R-" ani ko at nag ring ang cellphone niya
"Answer that call first, baka importante"
"Wait here"aniya at lumayo para sagutin ang tumawag
Ilang minuto lang akong naghintay at
dumating na siya
"Hey, Sorry"
Sorry?para saan?
"Sorry for what?"
"We need to talk next time, it's Tanya who called"
Tanya?his secretary?
"Your secretary?"
"Yeah, there's something important to do right now. Sorry"
"Okay lang"ani ko at bumagsak ang balikat
I thought masasabi ko na, pero hindi pa pala. But then it's okay, i can prepare some time to have more courage to speak clearly in front of him
"I'm really sorry" sabi niya at umalis na
I should go home, wala naman akong mapapala kung dito lang ako. Habang papunta sa kotse ko, hindi ko namalayan na may paparating pala na sasakyan
Light covered my vision, i couldn't see anything but all the light coming from the car. Yan lang ang huli kong nakita at nawalan na ng malay
Pagkamulat ng aking mata, tanging mukha lang ng mga taong hindi ko kilala ang sumalubong sa akin, i coundn't breath properly. Nung nilibot ko ang aking mga mata sa paligid, natanto ko na isinugod ako sa hospital. The people who are pushing the wheeled stretcher were alert sa kalagayn ko, until i coundn't open my eyes properly and fall asleep
