Lavender

chapter 1

~Present~
I glided my hands up her silky skin feeling deeply hypnotized by every inch of her body . I looked into her eyes feeling my lust for her take over my once innocent personality. all of this was new to me but one thing I knew for sure was this was what I had been missing in my life . All these years of feeling like something was odd about me like a distant memory I was dieing to remember . all I had to do was open up ...open up to her ,to myself ,to this community I was so afraid to be apart of . This was finally my moment of realization.... I'm gay.

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~ past ~

Another day another interviewer questioning my sexuality . I had just finished filming for "Book Smart" one of many film's that were coming out this summer . Ever since people had seen me play a gay character they had nothing else better to do than ask me if I was truly like my character . I can't blame them I would've... we'll have questioned myself ever since the film came out . It was the first time I'd kissed a girl and now the whole world was trying to figure it out with me . It almost felt like a big tabloid sign printed on my forehead in bold that read "IS DIANA SILVERSS GAY!?" . You tell me people cause I haven't had any luck figuring it out myself . It wasn't that I was in denial I just didn't want to limit myself from finding love the only thing was it's scary trying to figure it out . I finished up my last question and got up from my chair making my way to my dressing room I opened the door to see a half naked girl dancing . I ended up backing up and bumping into one of the lamps making my appearance obvious. I internally cringed as the girl looked at me ,she had light brown curly hair that hung wildly and a smug smile that caught my attention .a blunt hanged loosely on her plump lips "Hi there ?" I cleared my throat straightening my leather jacket "sorry I thought this was my dressing room " she slid on a jacket similar to mine covering her exposed breast "it's ok ,you must be Diana silverss
..I guess they didn't tell you we were sharing a room ,sorry we had to meet with my titties out haha I tend to get comfortable pretty quickly" I looked around the room noticing she was alone "it's ok ...and you can just call me Diana you're king princess right?" She ran her fingers through her hair " yeah but you can call me Mikaela , want some?" I looked at her confused as she let out a laugh " I mean the blunt of course,not me " I could feel my face burning up with embarrassment " yeah..I knew that ...um sure why not" I grabbed the pre roll from her hand pressing it against my lips inhaling the familiar smoke . I held it in for a bit slowly letting it out . Mikaela looked at me impressed "you must do this alot , usually when I offer people freak out or end up in a coughing storm " I shrugged " it's the only normal thing in my life if I'm being honest " someone knocked on the door interrupting us " king princess you're on in five" she nodded and the person left . She walked to a clothes rack and slid on some jeans and grabbed a cropped jersey with her name sewed on the back . I couldn't keep my eyes off of her as she slid off the leather jacket revealing herself to me I bit my lip getting lost in my thoughts . I was quickly brought back into reality by the blunt burning my finger "fuck " Mikaela looked at me with furrowed brows walking over and grabbing my hand " you gotta be careful baby " she kissed my finger making an alien feeling fill my stomach. she looked up at me letting out a sigh "maybe we could hang out sometime? Here let me give you my number" she grabbed a pen and paper and handed it to me after scribbling a bit ."call me or text me anytime" was she hitting on me or just being friendly? I watched her as she walked to the door "nice meeting you Diana " I smiled back at her "nice to meet you too" she walked out leaving me in a cloud of sexual confusion. After a second in my thoughts I grabbed my things and headed to my car . I knew I shouldn't have thought much of it but our interaction just kept replaying in my head the whole day. I wanted nothing more but to see her again.