Triangular Love

Triangular Love VII

The car journey takes forever, although thanks to the late hour not many cars are on the road.
In my head the most different scenarios take place. My heart hurts and my circulation goes crazy.

Completely exhausted and more than done, we arrive at the clinic shortly before 5 o'clock in the morning. In my panic, I didn't think about what to do now, when we are here. Visitor times are long gone, but I need to know how they are doing.

"Kit, let's wait a little longer, if we go in there now, no one will let us join them."

"They won't let us go to Phana and Forth either, we're not related and we're not in-laws. Even if I claim to be the fiancé with this trick they will only let me to one of them. And that I am the fiancé of both, they will never believe me." I'm at war with lying, but if I say we're engaged, nobody gets hurt, it's a total emergency, and white lies are allowed.
Sad and angry I get out, sit on the hood and wait for Beam to sit there with me. After the long drive I have to get out of the car. We are unusually quiet sitting on the hood of his car and worry about our guys.

Beam is somehow lucky, Forth seems to be quite fit, after all he could telephone.
But what about Phana and Ming?
The last months were the best of my life, of course the secrecy towards my family bothers me, but that's a small price for so much happiness. Now that I've almost lost both of them, I don't understand why we keep our relationship secret. Our circle of friends has known about this for a long time anyway, as has the ice hockey team and the coach. Everybody reacted astonished, but benevolently. They certainly whispered about us at the beginning, but well, who wouldn't?Maybe it's because of my desperation, but I look into the starry sky that is slowly brightening up and send out a quick prayer. The first prayer in years, hopefully it will be answered. If they both make it, and they have to, I won't spend another second hiding anything. I love them both and they love me. It's time that we stood together, that we appreciated the incredible happiness we had. It's crazy, something bad always has to happen before you're ready to open your eyes and not always push everything in front of you.

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The last days and hours have been so incredibly exhausting. I called in sick at work and told my mother everything in a long and very crying phone call. She now knows that I love two men and that I am with both of them. Of course she was very confused in the beginning, but she got used to the idea pretty quickly. Phana's parents also went to hospital, they took a hotel room in the same hotel that Beam and I stayed in. They are kind, although they don't understand why Phana has never introduced his fiancé at home. When I resorted to this white lie, I didn't think his parents would believe it as well.
That's how it is with lies, once you start, you can't get out that fast.

Meanwhile we get along well together, the common concern for Phana has welded us together, as it would have happened without this accident. Forth is doing well according to the circumstances, but he also has to stay in hospital for another week. Phana's body responds well to the treatment, his breathing is now working independently again. He is still being monitored, but the wound on his head heals without any problems. If he continues to recover so quickly, the doctors want to get him out of the artificial coma and back to the living in four days. I'm really looking forward to this day, even though the fear for him has become a constant companion for me.

Ming was awake the very next day a few hours after the operation. He broke his thigh, his ribs were bruised from his seat belt just like Forth's, but otherwise he's fine. So it was not necessary to pass me off as his fiance, after all he could tell me personally everything about his condition. Only when it comes to Phana, I have to rely on the statements of the doctors. Even if our relationship was deep and intimate before the accident, now we enjoy our new future even more intensively. Our feelings have strengthened, and doubts about our families are also diminishing. Ming's parents call him several times a day, both of them are so busy with their work that they have not yet managed to cope with the six-hour journey. And since Ming survived the worst, he told them not to come. It's also exhausting enough with Phana's parents, after all they shouldn't catch me kissing Ming. As soon as the two of them are home healthy again, we have to tell everyone the truth, I'm tired of this secretiveness.

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Finally it's time, Phana is with us again. Uncertain about what to do next, I left his parents alone and told them that I would be there in ten minutes. As difficult as this gesture was for me, his mother was so worried and frightened in the last few days that I didn't want to force myself into this moment. Hopefully he is not mad at me now that everyone thinks we are engaged.

Beam and Forth are joining Ming right now, who is as concerned about Phana as I am. While I stand in the hallway excited and desperate at the same time, waiting for seeing Phana, I realize that slowly but surely everyone is getting well again. Of course it takes time until my lovers are completely healthy again, but there is at least no danger to anyone's life anymore. The relief is so strong that thick tears drip down my cheeks, silently they fall onto the grey hospital floor, on which I also sink a few minutes later. With my arms on my knees my complete self-control collapses.
Damn, that was close!
As selfish as that may be, I am not willing to live without either of them. Through the long corridor my sobbing echoes unnaturally loudly through the sterile hospital corridors.

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It has been four weeks now since my guys finally returned. Ming can't help complaining about the crutches all the time. But also this more than annoying fact I take with a smile as a positive sign. Due to the accident the ice hockey team is missing three of its best players, but I enjoy all the free time we have. The two have made themselves comfortable in Phana's apartment, when I'm not working we spend every minute together. My apartment is uninhabited and dusty. With every day that passes, the two become stronger and at the same time more cheeky.

In fourteen days we invited the whole family to dinner, with a stomach ache I look forward to our outing. We unanimously decided to do it like with an oversized plaster, short and painless. After this one evening we finally have this revelation behind us and can start to live our lives without secrets.

The ringing of the doorbell tears me out of my thoughts. Beam and Forth are standing in the entrance with two large family pizzas. In about 30 minutes the first game of the Ice Hockey World Championship begins, which of course our guys can't miss. While they argue about possible chances of winning, Beam tells me that he and Forth are considering adopting a child.
Wow! I'm happy for them both.
My joy is real, but I cannot prevent a deep longing for my own children from spreading within me. From the kitchen I watch Phana and Ming. Inside I decide to leave them another half year, if we are still so happy then it is time to talk to them about it. The accident has shown us all how quickly everything can be over and I am not willing to miss anything.

The End!

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A short and sweet end for this story. I'm feeling exhausted, this week was so tiring and currently I'm sitting at the airport, waiting for my flight which is already delayed for 1 hour. Anyways, have a lovely weekend and thank you to all the readers who supported this story <3