Finding you

This story starts quiet simple they say that if 2 people love each other they should be together right but is it just love or is it more than that i want to tell the story my way the right way no confusion no missunerstanding and no LIES and most of all just me and the words here's how it all began.

One evening I was working in co op as u all know it's a very known shop an2yways I saw this guy not just any guy he was so shy and yet so cute at the same time that right there and then I thought that maybe I can talk to him which I did and we end up talking then he asks me : Can I walk you home
And I say : Sure if that's what u want
We began talking more and more and days went by and we became friends as hard as it might be to believe I didn't have many friends so I was happy that someone was interested to give me attention and let alone a guy and a cute one too. I began to think that there maybe be some chemistry between us, after a while we started to be really close , then I found out that he liked someone else which broke my heart to peace's I didn't know how to get over it. All I knew is that I wanted him to be happy and as crazy as it sounds it made me happy that he was happy I didn't know at the time that being with my ex girlfriend who turned out to be his girlfriend is gonna bring a different light to both of our life's and I sure didn't expect the situation to bring us closer together.

Me and him started to hang out more and more eventually I realize that we had a really good chemistry but I still didn't have the courage to walk up to him and just say I LIKE YOU i felt scared for a while there was nothing that I could do I know most of you are wondering why he didn't just asked me out right??
Well that story will come later for right now I'm talking about one of the hardest yet the best times of my life as it tough me a lot as well as showed me what real love looks like and here's why.

One day I introduced at the time my ex girlfriend to him and you could say that we all hit it off pretty well at least that's what I thought, shortly after I introduced them I made a horrible decision of setting them up to be a coupe at the time of course, I didn't know that it would effect me a lot but for a while I lost myself in my own thoughts thinking that I have a shot with him.
So the day after I get them together they ask me to hang out with them and honestly I was happy to feel included even if I was the third weal I didn't mind it, once me and them started to hang out more I realize that they didn't appear to be very happy and me being me of course I didn't really thought much of it at the time I thought that all relationships are rocky and tricky right?
WRONG !!!!
I started to hang out more and more with them and after one night me and him went to his dads house and that's were the trouble and paradise began all in one.

So how do I put this to not confuse anyone me and him had a heart to heart talk in the garden at first and then we talk a little bit more in his room, shortly afterwards I find out that he really likes me at first I thought all guys say that to try to get to my pants right ?? Well I was wrong he actually like me so much that we ended up having sex while he was with his girlfriend, and I know what u all thinking he's a CHEATER I get it but there's a reason why what happened happened but for that I guess you are gonna have to wait to find out,

So I said that you will have to wait to find out and here it is more juicy things and nothing but honesty.

So after we had sex I thought to myself that it wasn't as good as I pictured it, but that didn't stop me from wanting to be with him so after a week me and him started to date and he broke up with his at the time girlfriend, I'm not gonna lie I was happy that they broke up and I thought to myself he deserves better than her. Shortly after we also broke up and I was unhappy and he was feeling guilty for what he's done which was CHEATING on her, even tho he loved it at the time we spend together he couldn't live with himself for a long time with what he's done so eventually he started to be depressed which was on going for a whole year it was really bad and messy anyways as u all probably are wondering what happened after the hole year well it's quite simple really me and him got back together again for the second time only this time it was different why !! Because there was no longer a third person involved which made it easier but also it made things worse what I mean is after a full month of being together I decided to break up with him because of my own insecurities and because I was immature at the time I didn't know what love is and I sure as hell didn't know that someone was genuinely interested in me as much as he was after me and him broke up i realize what I've done and i started to act out and by that I mean sleep with other man and I know what you all thinking what a SLUT right ?? The thing is at the time I didn't know any better I didn't realize that what I had was amazing and I was scared of being hurt and ask for honesty and be hurt so instead I made the worst move and ended it really badly which had an impact on the both of us in different ways I tired so hard to forget him and move on but I couldn't, every time I would be with someone else I would feel guilty my mind would be somewhere else I didn't know how to be in a proper relationship with anyone else because everyone else was a rebound from him no one could meet to his standards and how good he was to me, eventually we lost in touch we didn't speak after what happened for good 2 months, then something great happened I finally had the courage to call him and asked him to meet me so that we can talk and discuss what happened and why and once we started to chat it all made sense to me again I was happy to see him but I could tell that he wasn't happy to see me I know that he wanted to be with me but he didn't want to take the risk of being hurt again which i understood and I was willing to accept it but at the same time I knew that I had to finally build up a courage to ask him once again for the final time if there's a chance of us being together and once I found out that there was I couldn't be more happier which brings me to another story after we talked we got back together the same day and after we going to the pub we went to his dads try to sneak to his dads without being seen as we decided to wait before telling anyone that we got back together again until we were sure this time so that didn't work his step mum caught me from the window as we were leaving the house which didn't help the situation, we then went on to dating for a while and at some point I think it was about 3 months when we said to everyone that we are back together and since then we've been together ever since I know you all must think why try if the first time doesn't work but we were determined to get it right and try and be together even if it meant trying more than once so the moral of the story is that no matter how much you hate someone love fixes all and that there's hope in every relationship at some point we went for a swim and he took a picture of me in the changing room ( not naked ) and put it on his Instagram and from there that's where it all began and now we've been together for 1 year and 2 months and everything is working out so far.