When I say you lying in the hospital bed
One tear slid down my cheek
Two more followed when mom spoke
Three more followed those when I said goodbye for the last time
When mom told me that you saw a little boy who wasn't there
The dam broke
And I couldn't stop it
I didn't want to stop it
Because if I did
It would have felt like I didn't care about you
But I did, and I still do
I was fine for a few hours
Then I heard the earth shattering news
One tear slid down my cheek as I was told you went into a comma
Two more tears followed that when mom told me that she knew you where gone
And the dam broke when told me that you wouldn't go
until you knew we would be ok with your death
And I collapsed into tears when I got home
I couldn't to anything but let the tears stream down my face
I sobbed as I replayed all our happy memories
And this continued for thirty more minutes
Before I got ahold of my self
I need to be strong for the mess you made of my mother
Only when I am truly alone
Will I mourn for you
And let the tears fall freely
I love you dad
And I hope your are in peace now
Goodbye
