I've always had trouble understanding things. Since I was 4 years old. Physically, Mentally, and Emotionally.... I'm frustrated.
Nothing has ever come easy to me and it's recently come even more clear just how hard it is.
I got a job. Big accomplishment for me, I know. However, what has taken people in the past to understand right away, it's taking me forever.
I can sense my co workers slightly impatient with me when I just don't get it. I've come to realize that I'm not very good under pressure.
All my life I have struggled up to this point. I continue to struggle. I'm fighting a silent battle of "Will I understand what I'm being taught today? Will I not understand?"
Usually I'm right and I just don't understand. My level of confusion has hit an all time high. I'm trying to get it but it's really really hard.
I can count money and hand out food but that's honestly to the best of my ability. Everything else I'm being taught is going right out the window. Even if I don't want it to.
Having a disability is a never ending battle.
