Date: June 7,2019
Today, I guess, I've been feeling down. I don't know why but I'm thinking it's depression. I can't confirm, but that's what it's feeling like. I tried talking to my friend today, best friend, actually. As I'm currently writing this, I can bet my life that she's trying to think of what to say. So far, all she's been texting back is 'oh'. If it were me, I'd probably say the same thing.
See, she and I go on this app, Monkey, everytime I go over to her house. I currently don't have Snapchat, but she does. So everytime they ask for our Snapchats, she gives them hers and I just have to sit there. Which is funny because every time we ask them to 'rate us from 1 to 10', I get the best rating. At the moment, she has two guys' Snapchats, and, again, I can bet my life that that is who she's texting. As if I'm not more important than a 16 year old who lives in Ohio!
My mom says to watch who I'm friends with because I'll never know when they might turn on me. I don't even know how she can say that. I mean, sure, it's good advice, but she has no right to say it. When she does, she's a hypocrite because she has 0 friends. Except me, and I'm her daughter. And the people she WAS friends with, portray her in a way that is definitely unexpected.
My brother's not making it any worse. He's only 7, so I can't do anything to him. But he calls me names, stupid names that wouldn't normally hurt anyone like 'stupid' and 'dumb'. My mom tells him to stop and of course, he doesn't. It shouldn't hurt, but it does. One day, I'll punch him so hard that he'll be able to see literal stars!
