Started Like This

1. Well Hello Father!

Love used to exist for me , Lou. Now I feel like it disappeared.
- Samira Joseph.

SAMIRA P.O.V

Do you know that exact feeling of killing someone when they wake you up on a Saturday morning? Well right now that feeling is running through my veins.

I groan while I hear laughter in my background. " Do you know that I hate you, Mae?" I gritted in anger. "YOU LOVE ME, SAM." she laughed and walked down the stairs. "Oh! By the way, love. Lou called saying that him and El will meet you in the diner at 11." She said. Huh! What the hell!! Lou is in California. Well I DID NOT KNOW THAT. Father or not he's dead like turkey on Thanksgiving. (No offense)

"Aren't you coming?" I asked while scattering my clothes around me to find an outfit. "Nahhh I have to meet Caleb and who I am to fourth wheel in family." She raised her eyebrow and I chuckled.

"And it's 10:45, love." WHATTTTT.

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I walked inside the diner, looking here and there and finding nothing strange. "OI DAUGHTER. YOU ARE LATE!" I heard a shout. I sighed. Early to say nothing strange.

I walked towards them and then I was engulfed in the tightest hug of my life.
"Lou-- ca-nt br-eat-he." I stuttered.
"Oh yeah oxygen." He muttered and relieved me. I hugged El and then we three sat down .

"Why didnt you tell me that you are in California?" I asked . "Well my dear online daughter as you can see we all are very busy people-" he was going to ramble again so I smacked his head. "I'm 23 Lou. You are 27, you are not my father." I narrowed my eyes. "I had a shoot, babe. That's why we are here and are you doing okay?" El asked. I sighed. "Well I'll be fine. It's not like I don't usually get it. Just because I kinda know you guys and I'm the online godmother of kids I've never seen, I'm getting hate like I married Selena." I said. "If you want we can say something to them." Lou said.
"It won't change anything, Lou. Well they are fans and I am a fan too. I know how much it means to get a bit of attention from your idol and me getting too much is too much for them." I explained.

It's been three years since Zelena ship has sailed and me being the first shipper was very happy for them. When I stood up for them never knew that after three years I would be sitting with Eleanor and Louis eating pasta and talking about my life crisis.
I'm @selenaislife aka Samira Eve Joseph.

I'm 23 years old, originally from South Shields and currently living in California since 2015. And I'm loathed by at least 30 million people called fans of SELENA GOMEZ AND ZAYN MALIK. Talk about normal.

"So any guys I had to beat?" He asked. I rolled my eyes. "Well can you beat yourself?" I asked and he chuckled.
"Well daughter good news is Zelena is coming back from Bradford. They'll be here tomorrow." He smiled. I smiled too at the thought of the twins. They are beautiful. When I saw the post saying I'm the another godmother, I was crying. My best friend, Mae held me and cried too. I was happy that too after a long time.

"It's been two years, Sam. When are you going to move on." Lou said when he saw my face. "I don't know love anymore, Lou. I used to but now all I feel when I think of love is fear. I'm trying but it's hard." I let my tears fall. He came and sat beside me and hugged me tight while El held my hand.

I am happy I have friends like these. They maybe famous but they are like me. Broken, fighter and surviving. They too have problem and they have their own way of escape from it. It's not easy for Lou to handle loss of two important women in his life. But he still smiles knowing they are always with him. He is full of life because he learned that in his 27 years of life.

Eleanor is strong. She's independent, beautiful and handles everything with patience. She accepted Lou with love and compassion. She is the balance he finds. She's keeps him on line but she also goes crazy with him.

They both are amazing souls and I really an lucky to have them.

"So ice cream?" He nudged me. I laughed and nodded . "You know if Fizzy would be here she would have loved you." He said. "Well we chatted on face time quite a few times I already loved her." I squeezed his hands.

We walked towards my apartment and saw the door opened. Well this is strange. I walked inside with Lou and El following me and Lou's shoe in his hand. I chuckled. "Safety is important, daughter" he said with seriousness. And then.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVELY SAMMY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. HOPE YOU STAY LIT TOO. KEEP GIGI IN PLACE TOO. WE LOVE YOU, YOU'RE OUR FAMILY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU." I heard this and I laughed with tears in my eyes. I see Caleb, Mae, Niall, Harry, Liam, Zayn , Selena and twins singing this for me along with Louis and Eleanor behind me.

"Thank you so much, guys" I smiled. "Aw love don't cry." Liam said and hugged me and then "GROUP HUG" someone shouted.

I'm loved and this loved cannot scare me.

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"How are you, Sam?" Zayn asked. "Well really? I'm not good but this surprise made me the most happiest lucky girl on this planet." I smiled . It's actually funny how life changes. Three years back I just had Mae and Caleb. Now when I see around my living room I see people I care about.

Lou and Harry goofing around. Liam and Niall thumb fighting, El and Selena cheering for Niall because he thinks it's his Irish charm. The kids watching them from the couch while sucking their thumbs and giggling in between. Zayn sitting with me. I had everything then I had nothing now I have everything again and I don't want this to go to nothing.

"I'm happy, Zayn." I looked at him and he smiled. He kissed my forehead and walked towards the kids. He came back holding Saira in his arms and looking towards me as in saying to hold her. I smiled and nodded.

She's beautiful. She has black eyes, black hair , her smile is like Selena and even more too. She giggles in my arms and then held my finger.
I would be a mother too if ..... I sighed. "I promise you Saira, I'll always be there for you, protecting you and your twin brother. I love you, Saira." I kissed her forehead.

I saw Selena looking at me. Well these people know next better than I know myself.
Even though I have scars of past, they make my antidote work for tomorrow. They keep me going. They love me like a family even when my family didn't.

I'll try for them.
I'll live again.
I promise guys.

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Hey guys !!!
So first chapter of SLT.
What do think of Samira?
And her relationship with the boys, Eleanor and Selena?
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Lots of love
M.