-Bizzys POV-
Practicing with my group is a lot harder than it seems. It only gets harder and harder everyday as we do more and more work. What makes it even better is the fact that I'm the leader of my group so I have to do more work than everyone else which is always very stressful.
My group and I decided to call each other The Crowns. There are 5 of us, all ages 7 - 9 years old and the youngest trainees under JYP Entertainment. I am one of the youngest members at 7 years old. There is one more trainee that is 7 who is not in our group, she is training as a soloist on the other side of JYP. None of the others in my group really know much about her since they never see her at all. They only really know her name, which is Ming. I wish I was able to see her more often. Is that weird? I've been told by others that it's weird to have a crush on a girl, especially since we're only 7 years old.
My group and I walked out of our practice room into one of the trainee lounges and saw Ming sitting on the couch drinking a glass of water with a couple of her friends who were older trainees. My group for some reason was more hyper than usual today and decided to push me onto Mings lap as I was going to sit down next to her.
"I'm so sorry!" I quietly yelled to Ming as I awkwardly got up off of Mings lap. Ming giggled and replied "It's ok, Bizzy".
As I sat down next to her, I paused for a moment. 'How does she know my name?' I thought. 'Oh well. It doesn't matter how she knows it. I'm just so happy that she does.' I shook my head, forcing myself out of my thoughts.
"Bizzy, are you ok?" Ming asked me, looking concerned. "Yeah, sorry, I'm ok" I paused "thank you for asking" I awkwardly replied.
A small ringing noise went off which meant that our trainee scores were out for this month. All of the trainees each month had to learn a choreography or song for an end-of-month evaluation. Ming had decided to do a Baby Shark remix for her performance and my group and I chose Undercover by A.C.E. Everyone in the lounge walked over to where the scores were announced. Ming had gotten in first place and my group came in a close second.
Once we had seen our scores we all went back to our practice rooms. Except me. My manager pulled me outside of my practice room and yelled at me saying I need to try harder or I'll never get anywhere; or I get kicked out of the company. This happens to me all the time, 'I'm not good enough' 'I'll never get anywhere in life' ' Why am I so awful at everything' is all that ever goes through my head because of my manager. The only reason why everyone here is mean to me and only me is because JYP hates my family. My mother used to work with Park Jin-young and at the time that she did, my family was very poor. My mother had taken some money from him and at the time he didn't seem to care, but I guess he did. I'm honestly really lucky that I actually passed my audition.
-The next day-
My group and I began to work on a new choreography for our next monthly evaluation. We chose Eclipse by GOT7 and I was given Bambams part. I was really excited about this because Bambam is the reason why I chose this company, he was my idol. I had to do really good on this evaluation because next month JYP was putting all the trainees into duos that we had to perform in. It would be my first actual performance. I needed this really badly since it would really help me get closer to my debut. That is, it would only help if I get picked to perform in a duo and when I do get picked then it'll be if I do good in the performance.
-1 month later-
It's been one month since we began working hard for this months evaluation. Good news is that I improved enough to be a part of the trainee performance! But... I'm also way more nervous than I thought I'd be. My group and I are currently getting ready to be put into duos with other trainees and also saying our goodbyes.
JYP walked into the room and sat down as all of the trainees went dead silent. It was quiet for what felt like forever until JYP began talking and eventually started listing off names for out duos. "Bizzy and Ming" JYP announced that I'd be in a duo with Ming. I looked down in shock, not knowing how to handle this. 'This can't be happening'
