Raped

1; Travel Secret

"Simon let's go!" Ricky yells. Simon and Don run downstairs,"You're coming?" I ask Don. "He begged. Don't think I want him there."Simon sighs, Don smiles.
*
As I had my head on Simon's lap and Ricky was playing with Don in the back, my wondered off and I couldn't control my mind.
~flashback~
"I'm Simon. Did he hurt you?" I whimpered,"No....But what if I'm pregnant?"
Simon sighed and gave me a hug. "You can come stay with me until you find a place to stay. You'll be fine, you're not going to be pregnant, ok?"
~end of flashback~
Something in the corner of my eyes and I snap back into it. Nash brushes his lips over my cheek and smiles down at me.
"Are we a thing?" I ask Simon. "We will never be a thing Julie, but that doesn't mean I can't kiss you."
That's actually exactly what it means.
"Why not? Why won't we be a thing?" He smiled at me. "Because I love you so much if we broke up. I would just...die."
He lifted me up onto his shoulder and my eyes started to fall. "You sleepy?" Nash asks laughing. I smile at him and shake my head, "Pshh, no!"

∘2 hours later ∘
"Wake the fuck up! We're here sleepy babies!" I opened my eyes and Simon was still peacefully asleep.
"Simon wake up." I say lightly shaking him. Simon opens his eyes and sighs. "I wish I could stay like this forever." I blushed and shake my head, he always make me feel this way.
"Well I don't so get up!" Don says pulling me up. "You're ridiculous bro." Simon says slapping the back of Don'
Ricky runs out of the section where her and Simon were sitting. She walks up to Simon and puts her arms up for Simon to pick her up.
Simon picks her up and and we all walk to a sign that said Simon Max with our luggage.
"Are you Simon Max?" I try not to laugh,"It's actually Max." He stares at Simon. "I don't care just get in the Shawn."
Right when we get in the Shawn Ricky starts crying.
"Oh my god not again!" Don said hitting his head. "Shut up she's two!" She keeps crying and crying. "Give her to me." I say.
Right when she touches my shoulder she stops. It was 9:00 p.m it was past her bedtime, so eventually she falls asleep.
"We're here!" The driver says over the intercome. Simon gets his and my bags since I'm holding Don
"It says room 43. That's the first floor." Simon says. We all walk to the desk. "What do you want?"
"A room you idiot." Don says. I kick Don. "Room 43 please." She hands me the card and smiles then glares at Simon.
We walk down the hall to room 43, I put the card over the scanner and walk in. All the boys were on their phones.
"Hey who's that wittle baby?" A guy with a bandana asks. "I'm Edurado by the way." He says not breaking eye contact with Don.
"I'm Julie the baby is Ricky, she's my sister." I lie.
"I'm Simon and this is my little brother, ."Don
Everyone introduces themselves and they all seem ok I guess.
I have my eyes on Jakie, Edurado, and the guy in the corner that just got up. "I'm Cameron."
No no no no no. It's him. I'm positive. I'm completely positive. I fake smile and shake his hand.
"Ok I guess we will see you guys in the morning. Simon your with me." Christian says. Don fist bumps him and everyone leaves.
"It was him." Simon says right away. Oh my god he noticed. I can't right now, "Julie, calm down. Now, calm down please..."
~flashback~
I was dancing on the dance floor fully aware not a drop of alcohol in me. Sylvia grabs me by the arm.
She's wasted! She's the driving me home though. "Drink this, it's not alcohol." I take the cup, Hennessy.
"Swear on our tree." She slurs. "Your drink Sylv. You can't make a promise that big right now."
"Swear on our tree babe!" She runs off with a guy that she's not dating and leaves me alone in the crowd.
I trust Sylvia, so if she says it's not alcohol, it's not alcohol.
I drink the water and start to feel a little dizzy.I was yelling dancing grinding on random people. "Hey girl. Let's kiss!" I grabbed a girl and we roughly started making out on some couch.
Then something pulled me upstairs into a room. He locked the door and took off all his clothes.
He pushed me on a bed and kissed my neck and body. He ripped off my my shirt and skirt. "Hey stop that!" I say giggling.
I see the perfect white teeth in the dark and smile. He ripped my bra and undies off.
"Wait stop it." I say giggling. He kissed the inside of my legs getting closer and closer.
Until he flipped me over and put it in. "Stop!!" I say seriously. He punches my back,"Stop squirming and I won't hurt you!"
I struggled against him and kept trying to move my arms around, I kicked and screamed and nothing seemed to work.
It was like I was in a plastic box and no one could hear or see me.
"What are you doing!?" A guy lunges at the guy on top of me and I start to scream.
I curl into a ball and scream, I don't know if anyone can hear me.
I cry really hard and scream even harder, I have my hands over my ears and I squeeze my eyes shut.
~end of flashback~
"Please snap out of it Julie please." I opened my eyes and saw Simon with Ricky in his arms.
He tucked her in and ran over to me," You had another flashback. I think this one was really bad." I nodded.
"I'll be back." I say. Simon gets up,"Simon I'm fine I promise." I say pecking his lips.
I walk out to the elavator and press the rooftop button. I sit down and get on my twitter.
'I love you @juliecolefromsimon so don't go to far' Simon tweeted. I laughed, 'And leave you, hell no!@simontwitter'
The elavator door opens and I sit at the edge of the roof. Most people say they would never do it, but it's soothing.
The beautiful sky, the breeze, and of course the view. "You come out here too?" I turn around and see Cameron.
Ugh. He takes off his hoodie and puts it on me. He has on a regular white tank and he shivers.
"I have a feeling you don't like me." He says smiling and sitting next to me. "I don't." I say getting up.
I'm going for it.
"Jan 9th 2014, you raped a girl, an innocent girl that was sweet and loving. She had a child, you weren't there. She always asks 'wheres daddy?' and the girl just says 'he's coming' but in reality he's not. You destroyed a life that night. That girl was me!"
I threw his jacket down from the roof just because.

I don't know what I'm doing.