It was a silent night in his apartment, after 2 months of hectic shows and concerts with their 4 membered band. Harry was draped in his woollen covers , awaiting sleep.But his mind, soul and body were frozen cold,more than anything without a cover in the world. It was surprising him ,why he was cold even when he has his sweater and multiple covers on. Then his mind wandered to the one thing he used to have, which not only warmed his body, but his mind too. He was wondering how much his life has changed since.
Yes , he was thinking about him, the one with whom he dreamed of a long, lovely life , the one who was everything to him, his Zee,the Zayn Malik. But it has been 2 months since he left the band. And it has been 2 months Harry had a proper sleep . He used to cry to sleep every night and even during daytime and during concerts for the first one month. But now it is like his tear glands have gone empty. But performing without Zee is worst since he has to sing Zayn's parts too, which he fails to complete even now .
Thinking of sleeping, first one month he never got any sleep. He looked like a zombie every day. After that, all these weariness after the shows brought sleep to his eyes, which was interrupted many times by dreams about his Zayn. But now being alone in the apartment where every nook and corner bear the memories made by him and Zee together,is not helping him at all. Tears start to fill up in his eyes and he wants Zayn now.
"It's my fault. I shouldn't have pushed him away. He never said to me that he is leaving me. He was only leaving the band. I accused him of things he never meant and thought. I never even gave him a hug ..I didnt even let him give me one... I kept on slapping his chest. I pushed him away. I never asked him about his feelings. But he surely said he don't want to break up . I assumed things. How foolish of me?? I should have heard him. I even blocked his contacts from all. I am sure he must have contacted me, since he have contacted all the others. What have I done? I miss him too much. I need him. He would have been here now with me, if i haven't pushed him away. My feelings just got too much then that I wasn't thinking properly. May be I should just call him? Or text him?? No... If he doesn't reply, then I m gonna regret. " Harry thought.
All these thoughts knocked Harry out and he was crying. He wants Zayn now . It was easy when they were on the road . Eventhough he missed Zee, he was always kept busy by something.
Harry got up quickly,walked to his closet and pulled out his Zayn's sweat shirt. He put it on and inhaled his man's cologne. It felt like home and he missed him more. He then went to his bed .
As he was about to reach his bed, doorbell rang. Harry was confused . "who might that be ,at this time? Its already 11. And who knows he is back?"
He left his bedroom and reached the front door ,ready to open. He opened it and was shocked. It was Zayn.
"Hi babe" Zayn said.
Harry was speechless. There he was, the man he missed,in front of him. Harry couldn't speak. It seemed like a dream to him.
"Haz,were u sleeping? And why are you blocking my way?Let me in." Z chuckled and asked.
"Oh,yeah, come in." Harry managed to say.
Zayn sat on the couch and was looking at Harry ,who was standing there like he have seen a ghost.
"Are you going to stand there the whole time? I m not planning on leaving anytime soon. So its better if you sit. " Zayn said.
Harry's heart fluttered at that words and he sat on the couch too ,not near and not too far from Zayn.
Zayn turned sideways to face Harry , who was looking at his lap. " Liam said you are back.I wanted to see you and may be talk. You know its been 2 months and.... "
Zayn was cut off by Harry. "Why now , Zayn??"
Zayn said " why? Is it a bad time ? I know its not. I ve been trying to call you everyday. But its like your phone has no reception towards my calls and messages. Its like you blocked me."
Harry gasped at that.
Zayn continued" so that's the matter. You blocked me . Then how am I supposed to talk to you Harry? I m not able to see you everyday.But you won't even give me the privilege to hear ur voice. What have I done Harry?"
Harry now looked into his eyes."You left me Zayn.Isn't that enough? You left me alone here. I was crying to sleep everyday without you. And days weren't even the best either.Concerts were the worst . Last 2 months were literally hell for me. You never knew. And besides you should have asked them about me and should have contacted me through them" Harry said
Zayn now moved closer to Harry and cupped his cheeks , made him look into his eyes. " I never said I was leaving you. I ll never say that. You are the love of my life. I couldn't bear the anxiety and my health was getting worse.The management was getting the best of me and I was forced to quit Harry. I would never hurt you on purpose. You think the last 2 months was easy for me. I was half a heart without you Harry. I also couldn't sleep. I tried calling you everyday,hoping that you must have unblocked me. But you never did.But thats okay.I know you were angry with me . Then I would call Li, Lou or Ni and ask about you and they told me that you were suffering so much And I m so sorry about that Harry."
Harry has started crying by now.
Zayn added " I was waiting for this day, for your tours to end , so i could come back and meet you and take you back."
Harry was now smiling through his tears..
Zayn continued " I had a fear that may be you are trying to forget about me, before knocking on this door.But the moment I saw you, I knew you were missing me as much as I am missing you"
Harry was surprised by now " And how did you know that,sir?" he asked as hes poked Zayn's chest.
Zayn grabbed Harry by his waist and pulled him closer " You are wearing my sweat shirt, my love"
Harry giggled now and wrapped his arms around Zayn's neck." yes i am ,I missed you. I wanted to atleast smell your cologne. But here you are . Now I got the whole you." Harry happily said and hugged him tight.
Zayn hugged him back and started to caress his curls " Now that I m here, can we get rid of this sweat shirt ?"
Harry gasped, pulled back and pinched his nose" no you naughty boy"
They both laughed.
Zayn stopped after a minute ,followed by Harry.
Zayn started to speak " But seriously Harry, sorry for hurting you ,even if it wasn't my intention. I want the old us back.I want to be with u Haz ,as your boyfriend. I want to hold you, hug you, cuddle with you, kiss you good morning and night, and i want to wake up next to you. You are my rock Haz".
Harry was blushing now ..and he put his hand on Zayn's cheek , Zayn leaned into his touch. "Zee. I want all of these too. I m sorry for pushing you away. We wouldn't have wasted 2 months if i heard what you had to say. I was being stupid. "
Zayn shushed him " hush Haz, you are not stupid. It wasn't ur fault. You loved me too much that you were having trouble to think about being away from me. I get it . I am happy to know you want us back too.. "
" I wouldn't want anything else "Harry said
" I love you , Harry"
"I love you too, Zayn"
They both leaned in for a kiss. The kiss was long and passionate, but with each moment, they were getting wild, wanting to make up for all those lost times. They were showing how much they missed each other in the kiss, pulling each other closer more and more, to the end that Harry was now straddling Zayn.
They broke the train of kisses,when they needed air very badly and was now lost in each others eyes,foreheads pressed.
"Time for sleep" Zayn asked
"Yeah its time, but not for sleep" Harry whispered to Zayn and smirked
" oh really,??" Zayn asked
"yeah" Harry said shyly.
Then Zayn got off the couch carrying a flushed Harry ,to the bedroom and ..
The Rest Is History 💚💛
