The Life Of Billy

The Night Before

"Billy it's gonna be fine, please stop panicking and open up the door." My mom said as she had finally decided to stop pleading with me. Hi, I'm Brianna Lynn Kersey, but please call me Billy. I'm 15 and tonight is the last night before I'm a freshman...let's just say my mind isn't taking it..well. "N-no mom, I'll be okay, I promise I'm just gonna take a shower." I said as I wiped the blood off my wrist with a baby wipe and pulled down my sleeve. "Okay honey, just remember that supper will be done in an hour so be sure to get down here before dad gets home." Mom said as she walked off and I sighed. I hated when dad came back to town, I loved him, he was my father, but all he did when he was here was criticize our life. I slowly stripped my clothes and stared at my body...I'd never liked my body but I was doing much better...well at least I was eating now. I turned the water on and jumped in the shower. The shower has always been my safe place. Warm, comforting...safe. secure. I finally got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around me, dried my hair, brushed my teeth and put my hair up in a messy bun, slipped on some sweats and a hoodie. I made my way down stairs and I could already hear the commotion...ugh fun. My little brother screaming, my parents laughing and...oh no..it couldn't be..my older sister... Heaven had always been the perfect child, prissy cheerleader, perfect grades, charity major, she was just... perfect. It made me sick. Heaven was my dad's daughter from a previous marriage and she was 19, my dad had always wanted me to be exactly like her, that's why him and mom always fought. Mom wanted me to be me and dad didn't. My foot hadn't even made it to last step before Heaven started screaming "Brianna!!! Oh my gosh Brianna!!! When did you get so big?!?" Heaven left when dad left and she hasn't seen me since...I had no urge or want to see her ever again. I rolled my eyes "it's Billy, Heaven." She paused for a minute, "You're still going by that name, ugh, it makes you sound like you're a boy!" She screamed as my little brother Tyson laughed. "Heaven Lee! We'll just start calling you Evan if you don't stop!!!" My mom screamed as she slammed her silverware on the table. She takes a deep breath. "Anyway, Brianna, dad and Heaven are spending the night tonight so that they can see you after school tomorrow!!!" Mom smiles half heartidly knowing that I wouldn't be excited. "Oh, that's... great!!!" I say as I pat Tyson on the head, he has just turned 2 but he seems to be getting bigger everytime I see him. After dinner, I quickly realized that it was crazy late and that I needed to go to bed. I told everyone goodnight and slipped up to my room, it was, sadly, time for my nightly routine. I blacked out and when I came back to, my blade was dripping blood, I guess I did good tonight. I cleaned myself up and plugged up my phone, turning on my "nighttime" playlist, I finally drifted off as "When we were young" by Adel came on..it always reminded me of my childhood...happy.