Thoughts Of M

Half Real

How does it feel to kill my own self?

I haven't even try harming myself

With a blade or cutter to slit my wrist

How about my kinda sleeping pills medicine?

Ah, I should try taking those

It will only take one gulp and a sweet dreams to deal

But it's not brutal, it makes me sad

Well, I don't want to look ugly if I die

There comes the night I'm full of interesting thoughts

I'll be taking that 91 pieces of pills I bought

No I'm not depressed, it's a trip

I'm just curious that's all, or so it seems

I slept after taking that all in one gulp

Unfortunately, nothing happened.

It's just pure darkness in that whole 24 hours I'm sleeping

Boring, I thought.

If they just let me sleep too long maybe it will take it's full effect on me.

And let me feel that I'm dead

That I've successfully killed myself

But nah, they are so stupid for saving me.

It's nonsense.

I'll take my revenge for they ruined my trip.

I'm planning something they will like.

I'll let them feel how to get killed brutally

Hahaha

I'm loving the thought of it.

I'll start with my relatives.