My Poetry Journey

Bittersweet Admiration

My younger self would've probably loved my present self. She would be fooled and see a girl who can now talk to so many people and get along with all of them. She would see a confident high schooler who isn't afraid of social rejection. She would see hope that someday she'll stop making so many mistakes, and she'll have so many good friends. However, my present self might admire my younger self just as much as my younger self would my present self. That little girl who still believed in Santa Claus and The Tooth Fairy. The one who made up silly little songs at recess and felt one hundred percent content with staying inside and reading books. The girl who loved her family and friends so much and always hung out with them during the summer. I admire that naive little girl who couldn't wait to grow up because doing homework seemed fun. I do admire her, but I know that no matter how often I look back, the world will always be moving forward. Adulthood sounds really scary to me, so I hope that I'll learn to be less scared of life when I grow up. I hope my heart will keep loving those who care about me. I also hope that I'll be able to let go of those people who couldn't care less. I suppose the most important thing though, is that I hope I always 믿음을 가지다 (mideumeul gajida) which means have faith in Korean.