Not The Ideal Man

Prologue

"You ready?" Kimmy, the wedding organizer asked. I nodded and smiled at her.

She fixed my gown once again and heaven knows how many times she's been fixing it! Feeling ko nga mas kinakabahan pa siya kesa sa'kin e.

"If ever na nagbago isip mo, just wink at me, okay?"

I smiled and rolled my eyes, "Baliw,"

"Seryoso kaya ako! May nakahanda na ngang runaway car e."

"Ano?! Isusumbong kita kay Lucian!"

"Nah, siya nga magda-drive in case,"

I frowned. Minsan talaga hindi ko alam tumatakbo sa isip ng dalawa e. Kaya bagay na bagay sila.

"Congrats, Lemery!" she hugged me so I hugged her back. At inayos niya na naman 'yung gown which is okay naman. Paranoid talaga masyado.

I laughed, "Thank you... Thank you for everything, Kimmy. Kung 'di dahil sa'yo, this won't be successful as it is."

She pouted. "Ano ka ba, syempre magre-reflect sa'kin ang kakalabasan ng kasal mo, 'no. Anyway, you're welcome! Tama na sa drama mamaya ako pa umiyak e."

The big church doors opened. Everyone was looking at me. It made me feel sick na na sa'kin atensyon ng lahat but I am glad that they are happy for me... me, getting married.

The music started to play. The church was filled by bubbles and red roses. Sobrang gara ng kasal na 'to. Yes, I always dreamt my own wedding ever since, pero I didn't imagine myself to spend almost a billion for this! Pwede na namin 'yun i-save for future use e. Gusto ko lang naman kahit simple lang basta nandito 'yung importanteng tao sa buhay namin.

Pero syempre, ano pa nga ba magagawa ko? What he wants, he gets. Whether I like it or not.

There's no in between.

"For the last time, are you sure about this? You know we can still run besides, di ka pa naman nakakapasok sa simbahan. Paalala lang ha? Kasal 'tong pinasok mo. Sagrado. Kaya sana kung hindi ka sure, 'wag mo na ituloy. Because if you already say "I do" in front of them," tinuro niya naman 'yung mga taong nasa loob ng simbahan. "There's no turning back. Hindi 'yan isang mainit na kanin na pwede mong iluwa basta basta."

All my life I dreamt about how my love life will work. How romantic will it be like what I watch from the movies or what I read in the book.

I always dreamt the guy I want to be with for the rest of my life.

But seeing the guy in front of me, smiling widely, almost teary-eyed, I have never imagined that I'll be getting married with him-- with the person whose not even my ideal man.