Chosen Son of Punk

"the story began"

No Feelings ( Sex Pistols 1977)

what's the fun in a story with no pain?
       every story has the same elements, rockstars with their origin stories and heros with their perfectly plotted journeys complete with lost mentors and lovers. these individuals are not always recognized in the beginning simply because every being comes into this world the same way. the birth of Remington Leith followed merely a year after the birth of the Kropp family's first son, Sebastian. this small family now welcomed a son named after his grandfather, Leith. this newborn was brought into this world to instantly be loved by his mother and brother while his father watched silently as the second son he would soon abandon came into this world. this estranged man held no emotional connection to the young boy at his side or the newborn in his wife's arms. joyous tears ran down her face as she held her middle son for the first time. she was a kind woman with nothing but love to give to her children.

       the fifth of may, nineteen nighty four was the day Sebastian met his first brother. just a few short days following the family was released to go home as Stephanie fully recovered from giving birth. this day was a joyous one full of hope as the new chapter of this family began. at the time no one knew what would become of this family but soon things would change drastically.

       as his mother carried him out of the hospital, everything was warm. from the rays of sunlight laying upon his pale cheeks to the smile on his brother's face, everything was filled with happiness but the storm would soon hit.

       Sebastian was not yet old enough to understand the depth of the day. He watched, sat to the side with curiosity in his eye as his mother and father began to exchange cursed words. there were many fights to come which would cause Sebastian to become a protector of his mother and brother. he didn't yet understand the impact that the baby in his mother's arms would have on his own life. he couldn't yet imagine the many nights spent teaching and reteaching this younger boy each note on the guitar and how to master it or even how to deliver a pick up line the correct way. neither of these sweet sons could picture what would become of their family in the future when they became rockstars together but for now it was just the two sons left with a nurturing mother and a father who never connected.

how could someone be so angry in a new beginning?
       tears ran down Stephanie's cheeks but this time they did not carry joy. not even a week old and Remington was already being exposed to toxicity. this man always had a way to diminish the light, his father drove with hands clutched to the wheel barking nasty words to his mother as they drove to their house. this house however was not home. it was the place they would stay for the next four years but it was never home to Stephanie, Sebastian, or Remington. this anger was sparked simply by the joy and pure excitement of Stephanie. of course Remington was not old enough to register the sadness that weighed down on his mother and she tried her best to hide it. she let the tears dry and she did not look back.

       after the words of anger finally ended, the small family had reached the house. small with just enough room for four, lack of details which reflected the lack of care the father put into this family of four, bland like the dynamic due to the dampening of spirits, damage done by him as well. this bleak place is where Remington would spend the first few years of his life, it is also the only home Sebastian had known. things weren't always so bad. Sebastian was young but he could still recall memories of his father happy. these were mere glimpses that took place all before Stephanie found out she was pregnant with a second child. things changed as soon as that news broke.

       the house was neither welcoming nor unwelcoming, it was just simply there. it provoked an unsettling feeling for Stephanie that would soon pass on to her sons as they grew each day inside the empty walls. as a mother she was trying everything she could to put things back together but the pieces simply did not fit anymore due to damage done by time much like dilapidated houses after being abandoned.