It will always be Her

Her

I have been sitting here for almost 2 hours. Ditched for the hundredth time. Contemplating if I should continue this.

Alam ko namang simula palang talo na ako eh, but I still took the risk. Alam ko namang never niya akong magiging priority. I was his second choice, the second best pero nagpatuloy parin ako. I knew all along that it has always been her, his bestfriend.

Pierce calling....

"Hello?" I tried to sound okay, even if I'm not. Even if I really wanted to cry so hard right now.

"Athena, I'm sorry. Blythe was sick and her parents' are not around to take care of her. She needs me." I need you too pierce.

"It's alright Pierce. I understand." I wanted to shout at him and tell him that it's never been alright, pero pagod na rin akong makipagtalo sa bagay na yun.

"I'm really sorry, babe. Babawi ako, I promise." I smiled bitterly. Ilang pangako na ang binali mo sa akin para sa kanya?

"You don't have to. It's fine. Wag ka nang mangako kung hindi mo naman kayang tuparin." then I hang up.

It has always been like this. He'd ask me out on a date but will ditch me because his bestfriend needs him.

He texted me non-stop, saying he was really sorry and he'd make it up to me. I ignored it. Pagod na ako. I wanted the pain to stop, but I love him. So much.

Kaya nang pumunta siya sa bahay kinagabihan, with a bouquet of flowers and a box of doughnuts napatawad ko na din siya. This is what I hate about myself, hindi ko magawang pigilan ang sarili ko when it comes to him.

I know I'm stupid. But what can I do? Mahal ko eh.

"Babe, let's eat dinner tomorrow?" I looked at him.

"I.. Okay." I wanted to say no. Natakot ako na baka hindi na naman niya ako siputin.

He saw my hesitation. He saw the pain in my eyes. He held my hand and kissed it.

"I'm really sorry. I know I've messed up, but let me make it up to you please? Kelangan lang talaga ako ni Blythe kanina, babe. I promise you na when she's okay, babalik tayo sa dati." I just nodded. I was so tired of hearing him say that for a hundred time already.

"Babe, please? Hayaan mo akong bumawi." He looked at me, that same face. Same eyes I've grown fond of. The same smile I have fallen inlove with.

The next day, he called to remind me about our dinner date.

Alas dos palang ay nag ready na ako since wala rin naman akong trabaho. Then I took a bath and picked the dress I'd wore.

I wore a black, body hugging dress and put a light make up on my face.

"What did I ever do to deserve you babe? You look gorgeous as always." Gorgeous enough to have never been your priority. I smiled inwardly.

I shook the thought off. This is our day and he did not ditch me so I should be happy. Kase kahit ngayon lang, I feel like ako pinili niya.

The drive on the way was smooth. We talked and laughed, just like the 1st year that we were together. How I miss this. But hindi nakatakas sa akin ang paulit-ulit niyang pag tingin sa cellphone niya pero I ignored it. As long as he's with me, I'm fine with that.

Nang nakarating na kami, someone called him. Alam ko na agad kung sino yun. I sighed. Akala ko lang pala ako ang pinili niya ngayon. I guess I'm wrong.

"Babe, una kana sa loob. I'll be there in a minute." I just nodded and didn't look at him.

"Good evening ma'am. Do you have any reservation for tonight?" A waitress greeted her.