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Perfect to me

Key- C/n is crush name. Enjoy! warnings: swearings

This feeling. It wasn't something you weren't used to, but it still hurt like hell. Waking up every morning feeling numb. You just stare up at the ceiling, waiting for something. The scars you made ache and you head screaming out from six feet under. In bed, you feel a shift next you, your reason to live awakens to see your numbed face but that doesn't stop your boyfriend/girlfriend's face from lighting up your strictly dark world and breaking out into a small smile. "Good morning, beautiful." C/n whispered as he/she move his/her hand to yours, squeezing it lightly causing you to give a smile smile back that soon quickly fades not for any reason though. C/n notices this and gets out of bed and walks to your side of the bed and pulls you up and out and into the bathroom. He/she, is your only reason to smile, they are your best friend that you trust more than you could ever trust yourself. C/n begins to brush his/her teeth which for some reason makes you smile a little and start to brush your teeth as well. Once finished, C/n walks over and starts a bath. C/n gets in first so you can sit in between his/her legs into the warm bath which then causes a smile to form from you again as you feel his/her chest up against your back. You had no doubt that C/n loved you but the constant pain you believed you put yourself through made you believe that one day C/n will up and go, with that being said you only had question, What was taking so long? It's not like you had any real purpose and to be honest you felt death was a better answer anyways especially when you need to rely on another person to keep you going so what's the point? You can't even rely on yourself and now you trust someone you know is better off without you? What kind of hell are you living in? These thoughts caused you to burst into tears as you sit up in the tub and let out a heart breaking sob. With your vision blurred you can still see all the scars on your body and how your ribs barely show do to your lack of eating and you couldn't help wonder what the hell C/n was doing with you, a complete baby. Before C/n could stop you, you got out of the tub and wrapped a towel around you, followed by C/n who was calling out to you. You rushed out into the living room and fell to your knees sobbing harder. You felt C/n wrap his/her arms around and you shove them off as anger flooded you. You weren't exactly mad at C/n but you were in to much pain to worry about what you were actually mad about. "Why are you with me?" You whispered but C/n still heard you, he/she always heard you. "What do you mean, Love?" C/n said back quietly. "LOOK AT ME. IM A FUCKING MESS. I SHOULD BE FUCKING DEAD AND GONE. NOT HERE HOLDING YOU OR ANYONE BACK. IM A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT AND YET HERE YOU ARE. WHY?" You screamed. All pain and frustration being let out on the one reason you're alive. "Y/n, I love you. Nothing will ever change that, and when you love someone you'll do anything to keep them." C/n slowly walked to you. "Why me though? Why do you love me of all people?" You cried. "Honestly Baby, I don't know. Maybe it's the way your eyes shine when you smile for a quick moment or when you cuddle up with your pillow at night looking as piece full as ever or maybe it's the way you hum along to the music that's blasting through your ears. Baby I can't point out just one reason why you're perfect to me or how or why you make my heart rush. But I do know that I love you more anything and it kills me that you can't see how perfect you are but I'll spend the rest of eternity showing you how much I love you." C/n confessed as he/she wrapped his/her arms around, in tears him/herself. C/n couldn't understand how you couldn't see how beautiful you truly are. It truly broke them up inside to see you so broken over simply nothing but he/she knew that nothing is more than something to you. "I love you, so much C/n." You whimpered in C/n's arms, feeling a little bit better to get your feelings out. Though after today you knew all your open wounds won't be healed quickly but you knew that you had C/n by your side and to you that was more than enough. "I love you too, Y/n. More than you'll ever know. You are so perfect to me, you're so beautiful." C/n kissed your head as tears formed in his/her eyes. And for the first time in a while you smiled you longer than just a second.