dear, blaire

to you.

gosh, it's really been a while. i haven't written something in a very long time. especially on here. this isn't much, but this is for the someone who made my life better.

to you,

you were my best friend for years. one of the first i've made since i moved. years later, the friendship we had was thrown away. by rumors.

i don't blame you for doing what you did. but i swore on everything that i never said those things to anyone or about you. i adore you. i love you. i would never do anything to hurt you.

i wanted to be here for you until the end of time. i wanted to be called your best friend as i called you mine. but now it's over. and i truly wish it wasn't. after you said those things to me, i grew angry. i grew upset. it hurt to lose you. especially while thinking you couldn't even care less.

everyone said if she didn't put any effort into fixing things, she isn't worth it. i didn't want to believe that. i wanted to believe we could fix it. but i guess it just doesn't work out that way.

as much as i wanted it to work out, i see now that it can't. it's nothing personal. i just don't understand how you're gonna believe these new friends of yours over the girl you called your best friend.

i was here for you through your dark times. you were here for me when i went through mine. we spent every moment together. every birthday, basically the entire summer. i never thought i would see the day where we were no longer friends. and it hurts for it to finally be here.

i don't regret the moments i spent with you.
i don't regret it at all.
i still care for you.
i still love you.
i'm still here for you.
no matter what.
i promise you that.

i'm sorry it had to be like this.

-from the girl you despise.