She Drives Me Crazy (ENG version)

Two crazies don't make an healthy one

The sky is cloudy; usually there is always the sun and the climate is quite warm. But today there's a light breeze blowing through the bushes in front of my house.
I open the window and I sit on the windowsill, admiring the wonder of the current atmosphere.
It's very surprising being the first time in three years that the Underworld is gray and gloomy. I like changes, sometimes you have to get rid of habits.
There's no one outside; everyone is holed up in their own home.
Pinco and Panco usually come to visit me on Saturdays, but I think they pass today. And to tell the truth, today I just need some time alone. I don't want to go out, I just want to sip a cup of tea in peace.
Lately I'm very quiet, everybody have noticed that. It's not bad to shut up for a while, on the contrary, it helps you to make order between thoughts. Yes, but only when you want it. It's not natural for me to not utter a word from the morning to the night. Even when my family visits me; they laugh and joke, but I remain silent and I speak with my eyes.
And even if I would want to talk, I have nothing to say. I have everything, I don't need anything.
I close my eyes. I miss her so much. Perhaps she is the cause of my stillness. Perhaps the thought of never being able to see her again put my heart and my mind on standby.
I look my hand and I remember the last time she laid her hand on mine. The second time she had to leave the damn mirror. I have no idea what I did while she was leaving.
Oh, here: I did nothing. I had to pray her kneeling to stay. I had to realize sooner how dependent I became on her.
What a fool I am. Now I'm sitting here regretting the many occasions I had to confess.
And that saying, which I've often heard, is real: you don't understand the value of a person until it goes.
Well, dear Alice, only now I know I'm really in love with you. And I'm sorry. If I had been smarter before at this time you would be here.
I press my face between my knees and I sigh. The image of her that emerges in my mind gives me a shiver along my back; those long golden hair, curly and messy. Two brown eyes, you could read the long story of a brave girl. I saw myself reflected in those eyes.
Myself happy.

"Hatter." I spring up. "Hatter, is there something wrong?"

"Alice?" I gasp incredulous. She's in front of me. Beyond the window. Standing.

"Yes, it's me." She smiles. I can't believe it. I stretch out my arms and I put my hands on her cheeks. I'm still amazed. "You don't believe it?" She walks away and turns around on herself, laughing.

"Alice..." My eyes fill with tears. I jump out the window and I take Alice in my arms. She wraps her arms around my neck and her legs around my waist. She sinks her face on my chest and I in her hair. I hear her sobbing, so I ask her to look at me. Her eyes are full of tears, her cheeks wet.

"I am so sorry... I didn't have to leave." She whispers looking at me. "I did a bullshit, Tarrant. Since I know you I do nothing else than bullshits."

"Don't say that. I'm the one who has let you go." I put two fingers under her chin to keep her looking at me. "I will never let you go again."

"Promise?" She looks at me with an air of supplication.

"I promise, Alice." It's time to tell her what I've always wanted to tell. "I love you." She blinks a couple of times.
"I am madly in love with you." she looks down on my mouth, and slowly approaches her face to mine. My heart beats wildly; I feel the flames emanating beneath me. Alice puts her lips on mine and kisses me slowly. I've never done it. It's... very strange. But it's the most beautiful thing I've ever done in all my years of life.

"I love you, Tarrant. I love you an awful lot." She moves her lips faster and she slips her tongue between mine. It's spectacular.
I hold her tighter and I lean against the wall. I feel that my knees are going to give out. I feel so good, in an indescribable way.
The kiss becomes more passionate, so I do something that seems obvious; take Alice home. Without separating, I open the door and I lock it.
I go upstairs and I go into my room. I want to spend the whole night kissing Alice. I want to remind her forever that I will never stop loving her.
I sit on the bed and Alice takes my hat off. She pulls back and looks at me; she has red lips and red cheeks: she is the most beautiful girl in the world. In everything and for everything. We are in Wonderland, but nothing has ever been able to compete with the blonde girl in front of me.