Best friends turned into more

What's Up With Jax?

B POV
I'm waiting out of Jax's house to walk to school and when she comes out she is in all black clothes with her earbuds in and her head is down. She just nods her head at me and started to walk. I tried to get her attention until I yelled, " Jax can you stop and look at me!"
She looked up and took an earbud out and said. " What...umm sorry I didn't mean to ignore you," she said kinda sad.
"What's wrong," I ask really concerned.
"Nothing but what were you saying," she changed the conversation.
"Well first off you are going to tell me what's wrong and second Jay from fourth grade asked me out yesterday and I don't know what to say," I told her but when I said Jay asked me out she looked even more sad.
"Nothing is wrong like I said before and that's great that Jay asked you out and I think you should say yes," Jax said that all with a fake smile but I'm happy that she thinks I should say yes to Jay.
"Ok well I'll talk to Jay before class but why did you leave me at school yesterday," I finally asked
Jax sighed at said, " I really needed to talk to my mom about something and she helped me but I," she stopped herself before she could say anything else.
"Before what, what did you ask her," I try to get the answer.

J POV
"Before what, what did you ask her," I try to get the answer.
" I told her that I like girls more than I like boys," I said as I looked at the ground.
"Wait really, that's great that you know," Blair said happy.
"Wait really, You're happy about this," I looked at her confused.
"Yes I am because I support you no matter what. Wait do you have a crush on a girl," as soon as she said that I started to blush and I said, " well I kinda like this girl but I think she doesn't like me."
"Oh well who knows but are you going to talk to her?"
"Yeah maybe but not know," by the time we finish talking she left to go talk to Jay. I'm happy that Blair supports me but I'm also sad because she got asked out by a boy. But I guess that's life.
For the rest of the day I sat in a corner away from Blair and just listened to a Spotfiy playlist and draw in my notebook. But when lunch came around I went to the bathroom where no one ever goes. Ok so remember I said I had a secret well you're about to find out what it is, I went into my backpack and grabbed my razor and started to cut my wrist, that's right I'm a cutter and I know it's not right but I don't care. After I finished I wrapped my arm up and went to class because the bell was about to ring.

B POV
I didn't see Jax at lunch which was odd but I saw her leave the bathroom and I saw something red on her hand. When I got to class she was sitting in a corner with her head down and had her notebook open. I tried to talk to her but she ignored me like yesterday and I'm starting to worry about her. What's up with Jax is all I was thinking about because I don't like it when she is sad.