It was always you

1: the big move

Hi I'm rosemary! Most people called me rose well for a long time it was just my mom and dad. They where my best friends I did everything with them until sophomore year. My mom got really sick and eventually died. it was so heartbreaking for my dad and I that we shut each other out. It became to much for us so my dad decided it was time to start over. That's where our story begins at my new high school. Right about now is when the 80s music starts playing as the kids walk into the school but this isn't some old movie it's my life anyway let's actually begin the story with me outside the new school there I was without any friends or anything starring up at the school. I took a deep breath and walked in. I was immediately over whelmed as unfamiliar faces whizzed by me not even caring I was there or if they bumped my shoulder I got through till lunch by keeping quiet and sitting in the back. When lunch did come I sat alone but I didn't mind I had a book to read and an apple to eat but as I was getting to a good part when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked up and saw a guy standing there with beautiful eyes.
"Hey I saw you sitting alone and I thought you could use a friend." He smiled. " thanks but I think I'll be ok."I said smiling back. He looked at me with a shocked expression. "Why don't you want a friend everyone should have at least one" he said. I looked down. "I prefer not to get to close to anyone" I replied. I got up and left the cafeteria. After school I walked home regretting what I had said to that boy he looked sweet and I told him I don't wanna be his friend I thought to myself on my way home. Once I got home I ran upstairs to my room and pulled the old jewelry box out from under my bed. It was a present from my mom years ago that I had kept. I opened it to see all the letters I write to her everyday. I put it on my desk grabbed my favorite paper and pen and began to write.
Dear, mother today in school I met this boy in school he had the prettiest eyes and he was sooo sweet. I messed up tho and told him I don't get close to people. Which isn't true I'm just scared too ever since you left because what if something like that happens. I still can't take the pain you left. I know exactly what'd you say about it. Soon enough that pain will turn happiness. But when because I have waited for 2 months now and I'm still upset and dads upset and it's still all messy. I guess you just gotta be patient. Anyway I gotta start my homework I'll write to you tomorrow!!
Love,rosemary
A single tear slipped down my cheek as I folded the letter and tucked it into the jewelry box. I walked outside to see that boy playing basketball next door. Maybe I should go over and apologize. I slowly walked over and tapped him on the shoulder. He turned around and let the basketball roll off somewhere. "Hey I'm sorry for earlier it's just the move has been rough and my life hasn't been the greatest lately" I said looking up at him. "You don't have to apologize I get it things can be hard"he smiled. "Are you sure because I feel really bad" I replied. "For what you didn't do anything"he laughed. "Welp now I feel silly" I laughed too. "Your not it happens" he shrugged. "Well it's good to know we're cool I'm gonna go inside and watch a movie" I smiled. "Is that an invitation to come because of it is I'd like to watch a movie tooo" he replied. "It wasn't but ehhh I'll let you come anyway" I laughed. With that we walked together back to my house. "Nice place" he said looking around. "Thank you I just got it" I giggled. "By the way you never told me your name" he said. "Well you never asked. my name is rosemary but most people call me rose" I said. "Ouu that's a pretty name!! My name is Colby!" He exclaimed. I giggled. I went into the kitchen for a second to get some water for Colby and I when I saw my dads car pull into the driveway. "Oh gosh here we go." I said to myself. My dad opened the door and saw Colby. "Who's this." He said. Colby smiled sweetly. "I'm colby nice to meet you!" He said politely. "Yeah whatever I'm mr.caldwell"he said walking upstairs. I frowned. "I'm sorry about him he's just uhh going through some stuff." I said looking up at Colby. "Well don't we all" he smiled. "That's for sure." I said looking away. "So how about that movie!" He said trying to make things better. So I put on my favorite scary movie scream and watched in silence with Colby. Sometime along the way I've must've drifted off and fell asleep. I woke up to Colby shaking me I lifted my head from where ever it had been I was still super tired and I did not feel good at all. "Rose? Are you ok? You passed out on my shoulder."he said with a little giggle. "I did oh my god I'm so sorry" I replied blushing. He looked at me "why do you keep apologizing for things" he asked. "Well I just feel bad all the time." I replied. "Don't I liked when you when your head was on my shoulder it was cute."he smiled. "You did?"I asked blushing even more. "Of course silly." he laughed. He got a text and looked down at his phone then up at me. "I have to go but I'll see you tomorrow" he smiled. "Byee" I waved and watched him close my door. Then I went upstairs and checked on my dad he was sleeping so I just closed the door and walked into my room plopping onto my bed. I turned around and faced my ceiling for what seemed like an hour before I got up and opened my drawer and got out my bottle of alcohol I'd stolen from my dads stash. I took a little sip then another and another and it eventually led to a good feeling? This was the best I'd ever felt in forever just me by myself dancing in my room to music and falling over every so often. Eventually after a couple more sips and some stuff I don't remember I woke up on the bathroom floor the next morning with an awful headache and my wrists also in pain. I brushed off my wrist pain because I probably hit it on something. I then slowly got up and put on some sweatpants and a comfy tank top crop top thing. I brushed my hair so I looked less disgusting and walked to school not feeling good at all. Once I got to class I walked quietly to my seat and put my head down. I heard someone sit next to me. "Hey are you ok?" He asked. I looked up to see a kid with purple hair that I hadn't seen before. "Uhh yeah I'm fine I think but thanks for asking." I smiled slightly. "Well if you need anything I'll be right here." He said. I put my head back down and gave him a thumbs up. That's when I really started to feel sick i put my head up and I turned to the side and threw up.
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<just a Lil note Jakes hair is purple in this story because I loved when it was purple 😍