What do we do now? (A dealor fic)

Jealousy

Hey everyone! Before I start this chapter I'd like to give a lil ~announcement~ I think I'm going to be ending this fic soon 😔✌️ I've really enjoyed writing it, but I don't want to drag it on by making repetitive and boring plot points. But don't worry, I have an idea for a mclennon fic :) I assume most of you like the Beatles, because queen fans tend to also love the Fab Four. Anyway, now to the next chapter...

Setting: John Reid's office
POV: John

I pushed a receptionist at the front out of the way, I didn't mean to though. To be honest I didn't even realize she was there at first, my eyes too flooded with tears to see. Roger said Reid meant nothing, that he didn't mean for it to happen, and he wouldn't do it again. That proved to be a big, fat fucking lie.
I pushed open the doors of the office, but I didn't go to the van with Freddie and Bri. Instead, I ran down the side walk for a block or two and hid in an alley.  The alley was like the one me and roger stopped in to make out the day we started dating just months ago, except this time I'm all alone. I rested my back on the brick wall and slowly slid to the ground. I tucked my head into my knees and started to bawl. I just didn't understand! Did roger even love me? Or did he just use me because I'm the only one who knew he was gay, and I liked him? The more I thought about this, the more tears streamed down my face and hit my lap. That's when some footprints approached the alleyway. A voice, female, called my name.
"John? John is that you?"
I looked up, and to my surprise, I saw the face of my ex girlfriend, Veronica. She knelt down next to me and patted my arm.
"What are you doing down here?" She questioned. I looked at her, and by the way her eyes were slightly red and puffy I could tell she'd been crying.
"What are you doing here?" I asked her.
"My sister lives up here, remember when we visited her for Christmas? I was visiting her. Now what's wrong with you?"
"I-" I could barely form a sentence between my heavy sobs. "I just, heartbroken," I stuttered. To me, what I said obviously implied that I was upset at rog, but I quickly remembered that she didn't know we were dating, and she sure didn't know about what Reid and roger did.
"I'm heartbroken too. Can we talk?" She said.
Oh no. No, no, no! She thought I wanted to get back together with her! I couldn't do this, it would hurt roger too much.
Wait.
It would hurt roger. It would hurt roger like he hurt me. This would make him feel like dirt, like the piece of shit he was. Veronica sat down next to me on the cold alley, her head resting on my shoulder.
"When you came to my house and said you didn't want to be with me anymore, I cried for 7 hours straight." She told me.
"I did as well. I regret doing what I did." I lied to her.
"Well, why did you break up with me?" She asked.
Oh, because I have fallen in love with a man, and we've been shagging behind your back, that's all.
"I don't know, it was just my headspace at the time. I was just stressed about the band, and how we're going on tour again, and we're recording way up north. I didn't want to hurt you by leaving you." This lie was rather easy for me to tell her because it was partly true. I am stressed about the band, and I broke up with her so I didn't hurt her.
"Well, now that you're in a different headspace, and you seem to be missing me as much as I've been missing you, do you want to... you know-"
"Try again?" I finished her sentence.
"Yeah, you would?"
"Of course! Come here love" I said as we embraced. She kissed and hugged me, it wasn't as good as Rogers kisses though. His lips were soft to the touch, but he laid his kisses down harsh and passionate. As she pressed her lips to mine, all I could think of was roger. I wish it were him, but he's decided he doesn't want me back, so I just kissed Veronica back harder.  This would make roger feel quite awful.
After about 30 seconds, more footsteps approached the alley, only these ones were running. I looked at the entrance and saw rog run down the street, but his eye caught Mine, and he suddenly stopped sprinting.
"John, I've been looking for you! Let me explain myself-" he stopped talking When he noticed my girlfriend on my lap.
"Veronica! Um, what are you doing here?" He asked her.
"John and I are back together! He decided to give me a second chance! Right Johnny?"
As she said this, she kissed me right on my lips, right in front of roger. I looked up at his expression.
"Yeah, that's fantastic!" He put on his most enthusiastic and happy voice. "I'm so glad, you guys make a cute couple. I'm just gonna head back to the van." His voice cracked as he said this.
"Alrighty then, bye roggy!" Waved Veronica.
I looked at roger.
"I'm actually gonna go back to Veronica's house, you three can leave without me." I told him. His eyes were filled with tears, and he started to walk away from the alley where me and Veronica laid.
"Alright then, don't have too much fun you two." He tried to joke, but his voice was sad. He lowered his head and disappeared. Veronica took my face in her hands and kissed me once more. I thought this would feel great, making roger upset like he did to me. But In fact, I feel tremendously worse. But I kissed Veronica back and acted as if it was She I wanted, one last tear leaving my eye.