A collage student lived the resident life: attending classes , studying and downloading the latest series (porn included).
Before he slept, he did what most guys do masturbate,then pass out to dream land.
This was his routine throughout his first year and second year, he was shy,a loner kept to himself and did very well at school but his social life sucked.
He hardly went home on school holidays, he loved his freedom.
Whenever he would masturbate, he imagined different women to keep it exciting, he was addicted and always looked for new porn material to feed into his fantasies
A certain female image was always in his mind, she wasn't in any porn film.
He created her in his mind, the perfect sexual partner, she was his type and he would reach the ultimate climax by masturbating while fantasizing about her .
She was: light skinned, hour glass figure, big boobs , wide curves , a medium butt and black hair.
He couldn't sleep without including her in his masturbation session to him she was the grand finale , no matter how many girls he would fantasize of they were never satisfied him as the light skinned lady did.
As time went by, he felt compelled to jerk off.
Only the light skinned lady remained in his imagination, no matter how much porn he watch , when he had to jerk off the light skinned lady took over as if she had come to life during the session.
After june exams, he had a dream of the light skinned lady,In the dream he was getting married to her but the weddings venue was at the cemetery without a priest.
The next day, he tried to tried to jerk off but he passed out and saw the lady, he had the most fulfilling sex he could imagine she was amazing.
He woke up in the morning ,he felt like he had sex, he even smelt like it, strange but he felt good, slept very well, it's like being on top of the world.
Everynight she would visit him in a dream state, have sex with him this changed him and his confidence levels.
He started attracting girls, he thought it will be a good idea to just date the girl from his economics class because everyone was asking him, why is he so isolated its creepy.
Thats how he started dating lethabo who also stayed at the same residence.
Their relationship was troubled, lethabo always felt he was distant, probably has another girlfriend she thought (he wasn't sexually interested in her) ,she was well built and hot, most guys went obsessive over her but he wasn't bothered.
She confronted him and he made excuses that it's pressure from books, and promised to make things better, they started spending alot of time together, being intimate but he wasn't satisfied by her as much as the light skinned lady satisfied him.
He said nothing to her about it, the more he spent time with her his love grew, his session started to bore him until the light skinned lady couldn't access him anymore, he was filled with images of lethabo it wasn't only sex but love .
Filled with anger, the light skin lady visited him in a dream to remind him that they married and she's pregnant with his child , she will kill lethabo, if he doesn't stop seeing her.
He woke up and took it as a joke went to class and spent time with lethabo as usual.While they were talking, lethabo's left wrist started burning it was so bad , she was severly burnt the area printed a hand, as if something was holding her hand.
He rushed her to the nearest hospital, they admitted her without hesitation so they can treat the burn.She spend the weekend at the hospital and was release Monday evening, he went to fetch her , he told her, he can't be with her anymore fearing for her life but he didn't explain to her, why he was breaking up with her.
Heartbroken, he went to back to his usual routine.The sessions were bad as if he was raped, he hated them, the light skinned lady started manifesting physically even in class, his life was a mess, people started thinking he was crazy, he spoke alone ,he kept saying "leave me alone"
He couldnt handle it anymore, the light skinned lady changed herself to look like lethabo but it still didn't feel the natural. He had enough, he went to lethabo and apologized ,she took him back they made up.
He loved her and couldn't control it, weeks went by his spiritual wife (light skinned lady) decided to show him that she doesn't share. Lethabo was found 6am near the auditorium paving ,she had killed herself by jumping from the auditorium.
He lost everything and he loved lethabo , he knew, he couldn't go on living he decided that he was going to kill himself, this would end the relationship with the spiritual wife
Dairy log september : Lethabo i am coming to be with u
He tried to hang himself but the wife cut the rope, he drank pills but threw them up , he finally gave up
,the wife told him she wont let him die, she's about to give birth to their child.
He didn't care anymore,he spoke to her in public, she was visible to him because of her pregnancy but still invisible to other people, his grades dropped, he didn't even bath, she was close to giving birth.
she turned into a giant white python her off spring was a python also spirit snakes which trapped him from going out of his room, he saw them as lethabo and their first born son, devouring his soul the off spring python needed a human soul to feed and grow, it coiled him but he saw himself playing with his son.
A week went by , he was found by resident security ,he was staring at the window so life less. December, he was suppose to graduate but sadly he was admitted to the mental asylum.
He went mad.
