My depression has been getting worse. I don't know how to deal with it anymore, I can't talk about my feelings or anything like that it makes me feel stupid and weak. I don't want to be seen as, as weak. I can't take it there are these people around me who don't understand what I'm going through and still try to criticize me. I almost died from health problems and yet I'm still the stupid one who can't do anything right. I'm sorry I'm still kind of freaked out over it. I worry every night when I go to bed, will I even wake up in the morning? Am I going to be okay today or is it going to be a bad day? Sometimes I don't even want to get out of bed. I have to drag myself up and then it's after noon. Right now it seems like the only thing that really understands me and what I'm going through is music, and I'd like to say thank you to Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun. They don't know me but they are really helping me a lot right now and for the last month. Have a nice day or night 💛
