WHEN WE WERE 18

Worst Nightmare

I'm telling him not to go. I'm begging him to stay. But each and every time he's refusing me. He says he need to go for his betterment for my betterment, for 'our' betterment. I just cannot take it anymore. My heart will burst out now. How can he do this to me. No, he's not the one I love . He cannot be the person I used to love. The person I love Loved promised me that he'll never leave me alone.
" Please don't go, I can't live without you, please." .
"I've to leave , forgive me if you can."
"No, you can't. You just cannot leave me Zayn!"
"Harreh, try to understand. I really really love you, but it's not possible for me anymore."

*Alarm ringing*

" Please- "
"Uhhmmm..."
"It's morning."
"What did I just see."
"What's wrong with me."

Tears rolling down his cheeks, he didn't know what to do.
He hears Anne calling.
"Harry, Harry you up?", Anne asked.

"Yes mum, I-I'm up" he cries.

After finishing OTRA tour Harry went back to Holmes Chapel to spend time with his mother Anne. He was heartbroken and didn't knew what to do after Zayn left so he thought spending time with his mother would help him. But still memories of Zayn would not get away from him so easily. He keeps thinking of him day and night. And the truth is he really misses him. It's still unknown to him why did he decide to leave from the band leaving Harry alone.

" Why do I keep having his dreams only. He doesn't even let me escape in my dreams. He left me then why does he keep coming back in my dreams." Harry started sobbing.

"Why?"

He frowned and again went back to sleep thinking he would get away from the thought of Zayn.

* An hour later *

"Harry? Harry? You again slept!"
"Wake up baby, it's already noon." Anne tried to wake up Harry but no response came.

"Harry?" Anne knocks at Harry's door.

"Ye-ah mum" he says clumsily.

"You again slept?"
"Open the door now baby. Eat something. You've not been eating properly since you came here."
"Harry!"
"Harry?"
"Harry!" Anne literally shouts this time making Harry wake up in shock

"Mum? Did something happen?" Harry asked quite shocked.

"Yeah something has happened." Anne said.

" What happened momma?" Harry rushed towards the door and opened it.

" Baby, something has happened to you." Anne said cupping Harry's face.

"I know you well Harry. You are upset over something. You're not getting enough sleep at night and look at you now sleeping the whole day. You forget to take your meals even. Where it all went wrong baby? You can share with me."

Harry became emotional after Anne's words. He knew she was his mother and she would definitely find out that something isn't right.

"Mum, everything isn't right. I'm not okay." Harry started crying and sobbing continuously.

"Mu-Mum, Z-Zayn left the ban-band leaving me a-alone."

"Honey, why does it hurt you so much?"
"I know Zayn is one of your good friends, but didn't he keep any contact with you?"

" Mum, he's not only my friend. He's more than just a friend momma. I love him mum. I love him like anything. I don't know what shall I do without him."
" I begged him to stay for me. But all he did was leaving me alone. He didn't even think about us twice before leaving."
" What shall I do now? Mum, I really loved him. I spent 5 whole years and now he left me. Wh-what shall I-I do?" He cried badly in front of Anne.

Anne couldn't resist herself from hugging her baby boy tightly. Anne was also in tears. Anne did know Harry had affection towards Zayn but she didn't knew that Harry loved him this much.

"Baby, you've grown up. Yeah baby, you've.  You're a big man now. And I'm sure you'll get through this real soon my baby boy. Don't worry me and Gem are by your side. " Harry still doesn't stop crying.
"Harry? Baby, stop crying. You're making me cry too. You know I hate crying."
"Did you talk to him after he left?" Anne asked.

"No." He said with a sigh of pain.
"He tried to call me several times but I-I changed my number mum." Harry sobbed.

" Oh. Do you want to talk to him?"

"No. Never. I don't even want to see his face. " Harry said coldly.

"Are you sure? Is that what your heart wants? Harry you can lie to me but you cannot fool yourself."

"Mum, I've always fooled myself thinking Zayn loves me the same way I do. But you see how it turned out ."

"See, Harry I don't want you to take any decision in haste. You've time. Do whatever makes you happy and better. I know, you know that what makes you feel better. So do that. I'm always by your side baby." Anne comforted Harry.

"Thanks mum. You and Gemma are the ones who understand me so deeply. And I'm finally feeling better after sharing this with you. I think I'll spend rest of the week here only. I cannot face anyone else now."

" Okay honey. I'm gonna make your favorite food in the lunch. And I'll order Ice cream. Alright?"

"Alright mum. I love you."

"I love you too baby. Now take a shower and do some work. It'll help your mind to be more free."

"Hmm..."

Anne leaves Harry's room and Harry starts writing a song.
He starts with " If I could fly, I'd be coming right home to you." Keeping Zayn in mind. Cause he knows, whatever he says about Zayn leaving him, he still loves Zayn very much.

I finally uploaded. Thanks to my sister for helping me so much.
Here's my second Zarry fanfic. I might not be frequent with it cuz it takes time 🙄