All I'm thinking about is her and I don't even know why. She is just pretty, and gay..... and her voice is majestic. Fuck I don't even know what she's taking. I pull up instagram and go to hails profile and type Kayla in to her followers and there she is Kay.LA._potato I giggle and there's a tap on my shoulder.
"Hey Dez" it's Kayla oh shit act cool. I drop my phone.
"Fuck, um ... oh... uh... hi." Yea.... so fucking cool.
She picks up my phone and looks at it and smiles and hits follow her phone goes off and she accepts.
"Thanks" she smiles.
I thought I was gonna melt.
"You okay?" She asks knowing I'm mentally having a break down. I nod.
"Yea, I'm fine thanks" I say looking down.
She grabs my face and tilts my head up.
"You sure?"
"Yea.... just um Yea I'm good...."
"Can I sit with you my best friend is sucking faces with her boyfriend and-" I interrupt without realizing.
"Yes!" She's probably freaked out and wants to find somewhere else to sit. Shit I probably fucked this up too.
"Cool thanks" she smiles and sits with me.
God I'm so happy I'm so scared I'm gonna fuck this up though.
"So um.... what are you taking" I say without looking up because I know I'll find her greyish hazel eyes looking at me and I really don't wanna mess this up.
"Culinary, and I saw you go into I think it was robotics?"
"Yea, I'm nervous I'm one of the only" I stop not wanting to say girls I hate that word. I'm not a girl. I just look like one.
"Girls?" She asks almost prompting me.
"Yea....."
"You nervous the guys are gonna hit on you?"
"I guess..."
"Your lying"
"No I'm not...."
"Come to the bathroom with me and tell me because I can tell "
"I barely know you"
"Not like you don't want to" she says flirtingly.
Fuck I do want to. So I get up and she follows and grabs my hand and we go into an empty stall. I hate this.
She grabs my face and looks at me.
" what is it" she whispers
"I.....I....I'm.....I'm trans....."
She looks at me and smiles. Then hugs me. I'm almost in tears. Only my therapist knew..... now my crush.
"So what do you want me to call you"
"Hails doesn't know she's not exactly accepting of trans people so Des is fine."
She pulls out her phone and hands it to me on the contacts. She asks for my number I put it in.
" what do you want your name to be"
In all honesty I wanted to say baby bit I knew it was to soon to say that.
"Deyvin" I blush
She types it in with cute emojis like hearts and stuff.
I smile.
"You should smile more you are to cute to be sad all the time."
I look down.
"It's hard"
She picks my face up and looks at me.
"Deyvin you don't have to pretend like I don't know why your sad. It's okay I support you, and I think you are so handsome"
She kisses my cheek. I thought I was gonna die right there.
