Don't know how to start
But every time that I saw him
I felt something
Like
Do I know him?
As if
I know him
That feeling
I can't even explain
From the very first time
I laid my eyes on him
I feel that I know him
For years
Every time
He seated there
Eating there
I feel discomfort
I feel that he was observing me
I feel so
Damn different
Even his voice
I've really tried
To act like normal
As long as I can
But his presence
Made me feel distracted
Sometimes
I really wished
That he won't go there
I felt scared
I felt
He was observing
Reading me
Even he wasn't look at me
But
I don't know
Sometimes
He just popped out into my head everyday
He give me this feeling
Familiarity
I don't even wanna talk to him
Or to serve food with him
I don't wanna see him
As if
I am controlling myself
For something
That I don't even know
I'm just scared
Then one time
We did some
Things
Like partner in crime
And hell
It damn so good
I feel
That
He pushed me
To be someone
That day
I smiled
And laughed freely
Without faking it
I laughed like
It comes from
My inner side
Like it so natural
So perfect
I know
I'm too good
But
That day
So damn amazing
We laughed
Smiled
And next day
He came back
But I really tried hard to avoid him
I acted like I'm so busy
I don't know
What's happening to me
I don't wanna see him
I wish he won't go here
And eat here
But
I don't know
I couldn't understand myself
It's strange feeling
I think I'm going crazy
It's my first time
To laughed and smiled like that
Even I wasn't said anything
As if
He knows what I'm thinking
And worse I
I was afraid
To be close to him
That's why
I don't wanna let time
To let myself get close to him
So I did my very best to distant myself
