during life some things can go seriously wrong but you know that just means it's time to leave that all behind and start anew. recently my life has taken that turn and i didn't want to make the choice to leave it all behind and make that change, but after today i realize i need to because it's what's best for me. i'm cutting ties with many that i once loved and played a great part in my life but now i realize if i cut ties it's better for me and them.
for the last few months i was no longer happy, my reason for being happy left me but now i know i need a new reason to be happy. i have come to realize i can do so much on my own and that i have more important things to rely on such as school or family. mainly i want to focus on my happiness. happiness is a big key in life and you know so is hope and faith and both of those are currently waivering. my love for life is dwindling and i know that's not the turn i need to take in life.
i need to be happy, i choose to be happy. yes, i may have a war going on in my mind and in my heart but sometimes it takes the bigggest things to change something and today i had that. this change has opened my eyes to a lot of things my family was trying to get me away from but i didn't want to listen to them, but i should have.
honestly family gives the best advice and they will always be there for you. i oushed my family away for the last 10 months except for my mother but today my sister and my aunt were there for me and i couldn't be more grateful for that.
and here i am...starting a new chapter in my life, i'm not yet ready to close the last chapter but i know it's best if i do. for someone my age all you can do is focus on life and do what's best for yourself. so i choose to start again, i've faced so much last year and this year and i guess this is a chapter i need to close in order to move on with my life.
so here's to a new beginning and a new start... forget the bad moments, the sadness, everything, but the memories will always remain no matter how painful they are but i myself will put them towards the back of my mind and move forward because tomorrow is a new day, i deserve to be happy.
THE START OF A NEW CHAPTER OF LIFE
today i woke up, i was alive, i was breathing. thank you for the new day.
~ part one: the end
