Unexpected Love

Chapter 6

It's been 6 months since I last updated so sorry guys.

hey everyone i doubt anyone would still be reading this fanfiction but i will try continue it in my free time i just started year 12 and year 11 was a busy year so i didnt have any time to update anything so sorry to those who were waiting to read !

Please comment ideas and if i should continue this ?

I will stop using POV ( Point of view) and just write everything after eachother. 

love u guyyyssssss

(Just a reminder the main character was in year 10 from chapters 1-5, now shes in year 12 so shes more mature about situations and problems that arise, so my wirrting style will slightly change)

CHAPTER 6:

I cant remember or pinpoint  the rest of the night and what happened all i remember was that Niall left that day and i didnt see him much after that. He had made new friends with boys in my class and i see him talk to Harry from time to time. I wonder if they got close? I mean Niall could have told Harry about me...But somehow after that day Niall didnt talk to me much anymore and so me being a not so nosy person didnt talk to him either or get in any sort of contact other than seeing him at school and in classes whilst Harry, that selfish prick ( yes as you can realise i have lost my ability to keep my thoughts of people like harry inside my mouth)  stopped teasing me not completely but mostly and moved away from me after that day he tried to kiss me. Like i couldnt let him do that, i felt in that moment that i could have regretted the kiss for the rest of my life, why did he even want to kiss me? I mean he used to tease me for so long like why would he want to do that?, questions had flooded my mind all over agian but i tried to push them aside. ME? i tried to act as if those two people who left my life now and who were in my life before, in both positive and negative ways ,hasnt affected me, but in fact it had and still does but i dont like to give much thought to it anymore. It all happened so suddenly and when i face a sudden situation or should i say situations my mind seems to get clogged and not know what to do but rather just remove these 'situations' or more commonly known as Niall and Harry from my mind but even if a persons mind does make decisions there is something more powerful and stronger and it holds the most painfull stories that seem to be felt through something that touches you in motions of a stabbing knife, this organ is your heart and my heart it didnt block Harry and Niall it just simply listend to my brain for these past two years until this year it could no longer handle the amount of questions unanswered and the amount of pain i am enduring. 

During the day I come across Niall and Harry and i swear when we make eye contact Niall smiles and acts as if we never stopped talking and every single time at the specific moment im passing him and this eye-contact happens i somehow feel as if i am in that moment sitting with Niall on my couch still watching My sisters keeper and laying in between his warm muscular arms whilst starring into his oceany blue eyes. Then when he dissapears and returns to his groups of friends everything changes and my life goes back to how it was and if i had to describe the feeling i tend to feel lost and like a small child walking on the road without checking both sides before crossing i mean there is more than 70% chance that this child will be run over by a passing car that could be travelling at the average speed of 60km per hour, and this collision will automatically cuase a scene of crime and many people will be affected. This scenario describes my exact emotions and what i tend to see happening if i get  extremely close to Harry or Niall, i would feel as if everyone around me will be affeted all becuase to put it in simpler terms  i am a walking disaster, not physically but mentally i feel as if i am going to riun peoples lifes. I know it sounds like im some suicidal person or someone who is always depressed but im not i just have this feeling that i will ruin things and people will continue to make fun of me just like Harry did on a daily basis, luckily he has stopped this teasing and cranked down the level. Instead of calling me worthless hell probably walk past me and nudge me with his shoulders. Since where on the topic of this so called popular guy even when he gets close to me while  his green orbs that never left my eyes back in the days are now distanced its like he doesnt want to know me anymore and i was okay with that i guess for now...