Finding myself

Chapter 12~Suicide

Abby POV

(Sunday) I woke up this morning feeling really dizzy so I decided to watch some T.V to take my mind off the pain. When I got downstairs I saw my mom standing with a serious look on her face and a white towel in her hand. "Sup mom, what's wrong?" I said walking slowly towards her "Abby what happened yesterday?" asked my mom."Why? " I said awkwardly then looked at my arm and just realized I forgot to cover up the cuts, so I hid my arm behind my back. "Abby, please answer my question? " she said with a stricked voice "Nothing... " I said with my head down.

"Whats this? " she then showed me a towel with blood on it, Oh CRAP, I forgot to hide that thing After I dryed my blood I'm so busted."I don't know" I said softly "Abby what's behind your back" she said trying to see but I blocked her. "Nothing just leave it!" I said panickly but then she grabbed the arm behind my back.

"Abby, why? " my mom said with tears in her eyes but I just kept quiet. "Abby,why?" she said then looked me in the eye I pulled my arm away from her and said. "I'm useless Mom just admit it.You never wanted me.I know your embarrassed to have me as a daughter. I don't have talent. I lost my only friend. I got kicked out my favourite dance studio because I'm clumsy.So obviously I'd have a reason to do this can you blame me. I hate my life and I HATE ME! " I yelled and ran up to my room leaving her there speechless.

If I hate my life why am I alive. I dont have friends and I don't even know who my family is except my mom. I'm definitely alone.I don't deserve to be alive...

After all that thinking I looked into one of my drawers and took out some pills.I took five out the box and got some water from the bathroom then went back to my room.I looked into my bedroom mirror with the pills and water in front of me...

This is for the best.No body needs me so it wont really make a difference.I hate my life anyway...

So I took the first pill and gulped it down with water.I took the second and did the same.Same with the third and forth.Then before I could reach out for the fifth I saw my hand shaking intensively and I just felt this flash of weakness through my body then everything blacked out...

Moms POV

I went to Abby's room to go cheer her up but when I got in I just saw her lying on the floor.I ran towards her and checked if she was breathing,thank goodness she was.I ran to my phone and called an ambulance....

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Abby POV

I woke up late night in a hospital bed Starring at a white ceiling."Abby sweetie,are you okay,it's mommy" I heard my mom say with a soft voice rubbing my arm."Mom.....why am I here" I said then tears started running out my eyes.Then it all started coming....

I almost committed suicide.I still wish I died.I don't want my life its terrible...

"Sweetie you just need to relax and everything will be alright" said my mom still rubbing my arm."I don't wanna be here" I said still crying and trying to sit up and before my mom could say anything a nurse walked in."Ms Williams may I have a work with you alone" she said making my mom look nervous but my mom followed her out the room.The look on the nurses face made me nervous...

After a few minutes they walked back in the room and my mom looked pale."Abby I'm going to have to send you to rehab" said the nurse looking at me serious "What do you mean 'send' " I said with big eyes."Sweetie its....." said my mom "I'm listening..." I said looking her in the eye."The rehabs in London" said my mom crying "Your joking me right" I said giving a fake laugh."Abby its for the best" continued the nurse

"But you can't send me to London.I live in LA" I said giving the nurse a dumb look."I'm sorry Ms Williams and Abby,but its important" said the nurse "You need to leave tomorrow morning" said the nurse then left us alone."I can't believe this,mom you can't send me to London" I said giving her an unbelievable look "I'm sorry sweetie its not my choice love.You did this to yourself.Bye love you need rest " said my mom kissed me on the cheek then walked out.

They cant send me to rehab in LONDON.They've lost there mind.My life is over.GOSH....

Thnx guys for reading this chapter.Next chapter is in rehab...

Xoxo