What I crave most

Chapter 4

Athena's POV.

The water rolling down my body felt nice but my mind was still puzzled. My body still tingling. My lips still burning. The feeling I have is just confusion. I'm just...still. Popping out of my own little world in seconds I call out willow's name in confusion. I hear the door shut; my eyebrows furrow together. I step out of the shower and peek my head out the door calling her name one more time. I grab my towel holding it closely to my chest and look for willow.

Dear Sweetheart,

I find you amazing. Unfortunately, our night had to end sometime soon. Even though we both know you didn't want it to end (; but you have a boyfriend. I think it's time for me to go home but for your sake I'm gonna leave my number on the bottom of the paper. Love those black lace panties you were wearing. I'll give you back your clothes tomorrow at school. I'm not gay and you're not gay but I don't regret that kiss.

sincerely, willow

p.s. my number is (xxx)xxx-xxxx

p.p.s. See you tomorrow

I'm smiling, I can't stop it because it's already there. I fold the note carefully and putting it in my desk.

All I know is.... I'm definitely screwed

Johnathons POV. (Athena's boyfriend)

My head is pounding. The fucking party got so wild. Speaking of parties I want to surprise Athen for her birthday but she hates surprises. She'll definitely hate the surprise I have for her already. I feel movement in my bed and I just freeze. 'Hey baby' I hear as I feel a hand wrapping around my torso. I shoot up quickly and Yelp. I cover myself with an empty pizza box 'WHO ARE YOU.?' I question. 'Courtney? Don't you remember me? We had sex all night last night. It was fucking hot' she says smirking and sauntering towards me. I grabbed her shoulder forcefully and told her ' shut up! We may have had sex but I don't remember it for all I fucking know you snuck into my bed and laid down next to me! Besides I have a girlfriend who I fucking love!' She just rolled her eyes and grabbed my shirt. She looks me up and down one last time, winking at me and leaves my house in just my shirt and her underwear. I feel like ripping out my hair and cutting my fucking dick off. I jump when I hear my phone ringing and the caller ID is "Babygirl😘🥰" clicking answer.

Johnathon/Athena

Hey baby

Hi, can I please come over I miss you.

Um, I don't know maybe. My dad is coming home today and my mom wants everything to be perfect.

Okay well, I'll see you later. I love you baby

Beep

I didn't want to hang up on her it's just I feel so guilty. I don't know what to do. Going downstairs I call out for my mom and when I'm halfway down the steps I smell the delicious aroma of my moms favorite spaghetti. 'Mom? Can I ask a question?' I asked. 'Yes honey, what's your question?' She replied. 'So my friend cheated on his girlfriend and it wasn't on purpose he got drunk, right? And now he doesn't know what to do about it. Should he tell his girlfriend or try to hide it?' I looked at my mother and she replied to me that this friend should come out and just tell her if he really loves her. I just hugged her and said thank you.. for my friend. I ran out of the house knowing what I have to do now. By the time I got to Athens house I was sweating and out of breath. Slowly walking up to her door with a pain in my left leg I knocked on her door and waited. I waited for 5 minutes for her till she opened the door with a beaming smile on her face. 'Hey baby' she said to me after giving me a kiss. I felt guilt in my heart. It was weighing down on me like a fuckin boulder. I hugged her and nodded my head towards the door, rolling her eyes she pulls me into her house and sits me down on the couch. I see her mother in the kitchen making what looks like chicken enchiladas but I could be wrong. 'Hi Ms. Mitchell' she didn't hear me. Athena grabbed my hand and led me up to her room. Locking the door she turns her head and looks at me. I stare right into her brown eyes and she just smirks at me. Next thing I know I'm being pinned to the bed and I see Athena "ungh" I blurt out. She's kissing me and her hands are rubbing over my body but all I can think about is this morning. I shake her and move her off of me, suddenly she looks at me. 'Baby what's wrong?' Shaking my head I'm petrified of how she'll react, I love her so much. Mumbling 'I cheated on you' she tapped my shoulder asking me what I had said. 'I said I cheated...' It's just silent. *SLAP* 'FUCK!!!!! Athen....' Slowly looking at her I see her face covered in tears as clear as a crystal and all I feel is heartwrenching guilt. 'get out' she mumbles. I just stand there till she yells "GET OUT! GET OUT! GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!!! I HATE YOU!' Her hands are pounding on my chest and her tears were hitting my feet. Her eyes were so puffy and I just wanted to hug her. Her eyes are just red and blotchy and her smile is gone. All there is, is hatred and sadness. Why did I make a mistake? I keep shaking my head while she's pushing me out the door. 'Honey stop!' Her mom yells Athen. She grabs her and pulls her towards the couch. She struggles for what feels like hours to me until she finally starts crying into her mother's chest. I looked at her and said I'm sorry and I never meant to hurt her. I leave and am immediately greeted with a punch to the face 'Fuck Jonah!' That hurt. He looked at me with so much anger. The hatred from him is burning my soul. I'm definitely going to hell for this.

Athena's POV.

That fucking jerk. I can't believe he would do that to me. I mean I kinda did it to him but it was only a kiss. He full-blown fucked someone.

Icantfuckingdothis!!!! I hear my mom tell me to let it out and I scream and hit things. Next thing, I know I'm sitting in the middle of chaos with bloody and bruised knuckles. I hurt. I hurt.

I fucking hurt but I'm still so angry! God, why do I feel bipolar. The world is shutting down.

I think back to before all of this and I just stop.

Stop focusing. Stop understanding. I wanna just stop helping and being so nice to everyone. For once I'm gonna just be a bitch and see how life feels after the way it treated me.

Can't fucking wait!

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