What if I don't want to be in this heartbreaking, guilt building life?
Every single speck of happiness feels so momentarily.
They all say pain passes and cures with time, but why is pain the only constant thing in my life?
Tell me, how can I forgive? If you keep me broken. Am I supposed to learn how to heal? Or to numb all that I feel?
Maybe if I close my eyes I can imagine how my life could be if I were happy.
Maybe if I count the stars I can pretend that I truly love me.
They say practice makes the master, and I've been practicing for all my life
