Life

I'm new to wattpad so, my work may not at the same level of standard as compared to the other users here but hey, I'm just writing to pen down my thoughts from time to time. Hope you enjoy. :)

This isn't a story. Don't expect any chapters or many pages. It's more of a short story in a way. Composition like. It revolves around the tale of a boy. A boy whose name does not matter for he is just like everyone else. Two eyes, two ears, one nose, one mouth. Externally, genetically the same as everybody else. But what's so different about him is the way he is inside.

Lets call this boy Zero. I know I said his name does not matter but, a given name would be much easier to write with. Zero came from a well to do family. As a toddler, he got what he wanted, often spending huge amounts on games or toys. His parents didn't mind, they just wanted to make zero happy. Food was also very well provided. Thus, zero became pretty chunky in size.

Upon reaching the primary level of his education, Zero did well in his first few years of school. Being among the top 10 in class for academics. However, socially, zero was a mess. He made a friend named Smart. Smart was literally smart, being good in his studies. Smart and zero became close friends, the two often seen hanging out together during recess and sitting next to each other during class. A typical best friend relationship. However one day, smart suddenly changed. He told zero that he was annoying him. He asked Zero to stop following him and poor little zero had no idea why. This was in primary one.

Moving on to primary 2, zero made another bestfriend. Let's call him Jude. They hit it off instantly. Becoming close friends until one faithful day, Jude left school to another school. Zero just could not understand why his best friends always left him. In primary 3, yes once again, poor little Zero made another best friend. And this time, the best friend left again. Zero was used to it. People leave, it's normal.

Primary 4, 5, 6 was the one that had a bigger impact onto Zero. He met a friend named Jax. Jax was a sportsman. Zero was a fat chunky kid. However, they still became close friends. Now the interesting part is that, though they are close friends, Jax often bullied zero. Physically. In fact, many people did. Everyday during recess, they would just punch and kick zero. Zero didn't fight back. He didn't believe violence would solve the problem. He did not tell anybody about it either, no one should get to trouble. Oh what a naive little child. Thus, zero became mentally weak.

During that period of time, zero was known for two things. First was that he was always smiling. At anything. Secondly was that he was a big cry baby. Zero was an optimistic kid. But violence still can make a person cry. And cry was what he often did. In front of his friends, teachers, anybody. And they don't seem to care.

"It's normal. Just leave him be. "

But deep inside, it's not normal. He doesn't want anyone to leave but they all do. Why does god treat him as such. What did he do wrong.

Zero had a creative imagination. When he felt that he had no friends, he turned to imaginary friends in the form of Sammy. Sammy was zero's closest friend in his childhood years. Always there for him to play with him and to talk to him. And the best part is that zero knew that Sammy would never leave him. This brought the greater comfort of them all to Zero.

Eventually, Jax left just like the others. Zero felt that another friend took Jax away from him. (No homo. ) zero was once again alone. Maturing more, zero knew Sammy was ridiculous. He could not talk to himself for much longer. He needed an alternative output to his sadness, to release his feelings. And he turned to pornography. Watching sexual activities online brought a certain sense of please user to zero. One that he had never felt before.

At a tender age of 12, Zero became a porn addict. After school, when normal people will hang out with their friends or have social activity, Zero just went home by himself, turned on the computer and pulled down his pants. Did he feel guilty doing that, no he did not. Why should he? He has been stripped away from happiness in life and now something is giving him pleasure so all the more he should continue.  

Of course, nobody knew about this except for him. At that point of time, Zero wasn't a religious person, but he did pray to god once in a while to forgive him for what he has done. Feeling remorseful? Nah. Zero just didn't want to go to hell.

Taking a side note from zero, lets talk about Zeros parents. I shall make them Dex and rose. Dex was a strong man despite being short in height. Rose was a social able woman, being able to interact with anyone. However, one person she could not interact with was Dex. Yes they are married but they don't act like they are married. No nicknames for each other but rather, they call each other by name. They do not sleep together as zero sleeps with rosé and Dex sleeps by himself. There seemed to be no love between them. And Zero could see this. Zero could not understand what was love. What did it mean to love somebody else. To care for them. To take care for them. Don't get me wrong, parental love is much different from love between a couple. Zeros parents did not teach him much values either. Much of the values zero learned was either through the television or the computer.

Now back to zero. Zero still lacked what he really wanted. Companionship. Someone he could talk to. Someone who would be there for him all the time. But zero did not get that. Not until much later in his life but that's a story for another time. Zero's childhood is one to be not remembered. But in writing it down, I am forever engraving it onto the deep worldwide Internet unless they choose to delete my story. This is a story of the childhood of zero. Ranging from the age since he was born till the age of 12. I hope you enjoyed it and who knows, I might just write more about zero. Thank you.