Love of the Spirit - Junjou Romantica

Chapter 4 : I never knew what I had

Chapter 4 is here~ I don't own Junjou Romantica~ but I own this fanfic which is good enough~ anyway let the chapter start~ Fluff

Misaki POV

I looked at Usagi, even though he was right in front of me and had been with me for a bit. I still couldn't comprehend that Usagi had returned to me, it was like a dream come true.

Maybe I should be more appreciative towards Usagi.. When he left.. I had felt so empty inside as if I was nothing.

"Misaki what's wrong? You seem to be a little quiet"

I smiled at Usagi happily and tackle hugged him making him fall on the bed, I then nuzzled into him.

"M-Misaki?! What's wrong? your acting strange.."

I laughed lightly at Usagi's expression, it was expected of him to seem slightly confused by my actions.

Usually I wouldn't do things like this... But now, I finally understand my feelings fully.

"Nothing's wrong Usagi..no Akihiko, I just love you so much.. I'm...I'm lost without you"

I let myself enjoy Akihiko's warmth that I never had expected to feel again, I loved that my thoughts had been wrong.

"Misaki.. Where is this coming from?"

Akihiko's voice was soft and quiet, I could see tears welling up inside of his lavender eyes. It seemed a little odd, usually I was the one who was crying but I felt happy, happy that I had made Akihiko cry from happiness. I cupped Akihiko's face in my hands and tilted my head and smiled at him.

"Have you ever heard the saying you never knew what you had until its gone? When you died I felt so lost and confused, I couldn't feel any happiness at all. I can't believe I was so stupid before... I need you Akihiko, I can't live without you, you're my light in my world.. I finally realized this when you were forced to leave me.."

I didn't even need to think those words, they had just flowed out of my mouth as if they were water. I knew that I had said exactly what I felt towards Akihiko.

"Misaki... You have no idea how much those words mean to me, I've been waiting all these years for you to say that.. Thank you"

I blushed lightly, I was thankful that I had finally come to turns with my true feelings.

"I'm sorry for making you wait Akihiko"

I kissed him lightly, I was content with just being able to be near the one who I loved. I looked into Akihiko's lavender eyes and was happy to see them brimming with love as he returned my gaze. Akihiko stroked my hair softly, his touch seemed so faint and reassuring for me.

"Misaki, it doesn't matter how long I waited, all that matters is that you've finally said it"

I couldn't help but feel a little sad at Akihiko's words, it took so long for me to realize yet he waited for me ever so patiently.

"Baka Akihiko, I seemed to be a little late. I took so long that you died first"

Akihiko stroked my cheek with kindness, and pulled me closer towards him. I had decided that I would no longer let my pride get the better of me, I would actually be true to my feelings.

Akihiko, I promise that I'll try my best to express just how much you really mean to me. I haven't even expressed half of how much I love truly love you..

"Misaki, if me dying made you open up your eyes to yourself then Im glad I died"

I looked at Akihiko in shock when he mentioned that he was glad that he had died. I couldn't believe he had just said something like that.