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Hours had gone by since Sharon made Ricky take Ava to a local hotel after telling her " Snitches can't sleep under the same roof as me" .
Ricky had finally made his way back to the house and of course everybody was trying to talk to him about the situation. Ricky didn't want to talk though, not even Antonio could get him to talk. Only person who could wasn't there so he went completely mute and locked himself in his room, something he did as a child that only Karly could help him with.
"Ricky you need to explain how you got a F on your English test !" Sharon asked her fifteen year old son but he didn't answer he just sat there as if nobody was even speaking to him.
"Son just tell us what happened, do you need tutoring or extra help?. Ricky what's the fucking problem!" Kenneth asked his son but Ricky still sat there completely mute.
He knew he had failed the test when he did it , because he failed on purpose. He could've easily made a 100% A , he knew everything that was on the test. —- He didn't though because he wanted to try a different technique of getting his parents attention but just like the other times he didn't get the attention he was hoping for instead he got yelling and cursing.
"I can't keep doing this shit Sharon the boy needs help ! He keeps fucking up everything he do" Kenneth yelled getting frustrated at how much Ricky acts out.
"He just needs more medicine Kenneth he will be okay I'm going to go make a appointment for him" Sharon said walking away with tears in her eyes. And Ricky continued to be mute.
"I don't want no more fucking kids , it's some wrong with all y'all !" Kenneth yelled storming out the house and Ricky shedded a tear. Walking up the stairs he went into nineteen year old Karly's bedroom where she was doing her college homework with earphones in her ear.— Looking up from her book she saw a teary eyed Ricky making her heart drop.
"Come here" She told him , she knew not to ask because he would tell her on his own , he always did. "Just calm down" She told him in a whisper as he laid on her lap cradling himself into her hip, she also got comfortable herself and started rubbing his ears.
"Even when nobody else understands you I will , and even when nobody else tells you that they care I will. When nobody else shows you love I will. I'll forever have your back no matter what" She told him rubbing the back of his neck as they both shedded tears together.
"Please don't give up on me" Ricky told her snuggling into her more.
"I'll never give up on you , I promise" Karly told him kissing his forehead as they both drifted off to sleep.
So much had went on in Ricky's life just for him to be eighteen and he felt like it was all hitting him at once. He had finally realized how really fucked up he was but the most fucked up part was that Karly wasn't there for him like she promised.
"That fucking bitch ! She left me , how could she leave me when she promised ? She think she can hurt me and leave me with my child!" Ricky yelled going to get his phone to call Karly but she didn't answer so he decided to leave a message.
"When I see you ima fucking kill you !" He yelled with tears in his eyes. "But I want you to know I only fucked with you because i was bored , you meant nothing to me I hope you be miserable all yo life" He said into the phone before hanging up and throwing it at the wall.
Going into his bags he looked for his pain medication that he took to try to replace his other medication that kept him together. Ricky was going on three almost months without his meds and he was reaching his breaking point.
Popping two pills in his mouth he began to walk back and forth in the room, while mumbling things to himself. He had purposely brought Ava on the trip just to bother Karly he wanted her to say something or do something just like Ava would do. But Ricky knew it was going to take a lot more to make Karly react.
That's why he told Ava mostly everything about him and Karly knowing it would piss her off and she would say something. In the midst of doing all of that he was trying to fight his heart from accepting the fact that he was in love. Even though he trusted Karly with his life he was so used to doing dumb shit just to get attention from his parents that he started to do it with everyone even Karly.
That's why he messed around with other girls behind Karly's back ,because he was used to that. He was used to doing things just to get a reaction , he usually didn't care about other girls finding out about all the things he did but with Karly it was different. He wanted to do better but he just didn't know how.
Not feeling numb enough he got his weed he brought from home out his bag and started to roll up while continuing to mumble things to himself. He needed to feel numb he had to feel numb.
"Why I can't never do right hm?" He asked himself " I i Wanna be a good boy , why can't I be a good boy" He said to himself lighting his blunt and taking a blunt. Going under his bed he pulled out a liquor bottle he had snuck and took a few big gulps.
"I wanna be happy but how can I be happy without her?" He asked himself going into the cabinet in the bathroom to get a blade. He sat on the toilet crying tears mumbling I'm sorry baby before cutting " K A R L Y" Into his arm and letting himself bleed out until he couldn't say sorry anymore.
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