Valuable Pain

8

I woke up the next morning and Tamar was not in the bed.i looked at the time and it was 1 pm

" I didn't even knew it was that damn late".I said to myself.

I got up and went in the shower for 40 minutes I got up and lotion my body and put on my Addis's jacket and pants.I looked At the time and it was 2:30 I went downstairs and Tamar was looking at the tv.

She looked at me "well damm finally your up"she said while laughing.

"I didn't even know it was that late"I said.

"Anyway, what you tryna do today"I said.

"Shit nothing it seems like every time we go out it's always some drama"I said.

"Ok you really gone let irrelevant bitches keep you from having fun"she said.

"No I'm just saying"I said shrugging my shoulders.

"You ain't wear that cute ass outfit for nothing come on let's go to the mall and after that go to Starbucks and oh let's go see that movie in the theater....we can even invite the boys I heard that shit scary"she said.

"Ok fine come on let's go before I change my damm mind"I said.

She smiled and grabbed her keys and we walked to the car.when we got in I plugged the aux cord in and turned to press by cardi b.

We was jamming in the car then me and Tamar started rapping together.

"PRESS PRESS PRESS PRESS CARDI DONT NEED NO PRESS".

30 minutes later we made it to the mall it was a lot of fucking traffic.we got out the car it was packed as usual.when we got in the mall I went to forever 21 and was looking at clothes.i brought one outfit.then after that I went to rue 22 ,H&M,and lots of other stores about 2 hours later I meet up with Tamar at chick-fil.

We went up and ordered some food and sat at a table.

"what's the deal with you and kentrell?"Tamar asked

"Nothing"

"You think he cute tho ain't it?".she smirked

"I mean yeah he cute are whatever but not really my type"I shook my head

"Y'all would be cute together just saying"she said.

"Not really plus I'm not ready for no relationship"I said rolling my eyes.

"Oh come on Ciara it's been 3 years you need to get over that boy"she said rolling her eyes.

"I am over him...I'm just not ready to get serious with nobody"I said.

"Oh I see but have you not seen the way he stare at you"she said sipping her lemonade

"I thought I was the only one that notice that"I said laughing.

"No that means something tho like maybe he like you"she said

"I don't want to talk about this anymore"I said rolling my eyes

"See that's your problem...Look you really need to get over your ex...you can't think that every boy is like that nigga"

"I know"I mumbled.

"Come on let's go to star bucks"she said.

We went to her car and for some reason I was thinking about what she told me I mean maybe I should give a boy a chance.

When my ex cheated it felt like I was being hit by a car that's when I went into depression. I was in my room all the time.I wasn't eating or sleeping I wasn't talking to nobody I use to cut myself because at the time it just cured my pain.