Jungkook still remember those day where
he locked himself in his studio, his golden
closet. A giggle escaped his lips as he
recalled his hyungs' reactions and how
they were worried when he refused to
get out of his GCF, only to eat or use the
restroom. It was tiring, exhausting but
worth it. He was so proud of his work and
nothing could be better than the praise
and compliments he had received. He was
happy that people appreciated and enjoyed the video and it encouraged him to make more. He was excited to read the comments of their amazing fans.
It was heartwarming and made his heart flutter seeing all those beautiful words from ARMY. They were real angels. Their angel and their family.
Jungkook had a big grin plastered on his
face which made both Jimin and Taehyung
share a look, wondering what made their
maknae happy and jovial. "Kookie?" Jimin
spoke, uncertain as he played with his
food. Jungkook snapped out of his
thoughts and hummed as he looked up at
the older. "Yes Jiminie-hyung?" Jungkook
smiled at him and stuffed his mouth with his food. "Are you okay? You're smiling...
and it's creepy ?" It was almost as a
a question which made Taehyung snicker,
clearly amused by the situation. Jungkook
giggled and shrugged "I'm just happy ARMY
loved the video! You remember our trip to
Japan?! I'm so delighted hyung!" He
exclaimed and got up quickly, getting
scolded by the oldest member. They all
watched as the maknae skipped to his
room and heard the slight bang of the
door as it was closed a little too harsh.
Jungkook dropped his body on his bed and grabbed his laptop. He switched it on and
waited patiently as it loaded. He then
logged in YouTube and immediately
typed the title, leading him to the video
he wished to watch for the hundredth
time. A deep frown formed as he typed
the name again and again swiftly, his
heart beating at a fast pace as he
couldnt find it. "Where is it?" He mumbled
and scrolled with panick through the
suggestions but to no avail. It had
disappeared, as if it never was uploaded
in their channel. Jungkook's hands were
trembling slightly as he didn't find it. "It
can't be..." he said in a shaky voice and got up. Stumbling on his feet, he made
it to his desktop where his phone was
placed.
Jungkook's eyes teared up as he didn't
find it for real. How did it happen? Why
couldn't he find it. He remembered last
time he checked it. It was nearly hitting
9M views. Tears started falling down his
cheeks as he sat down on his bed, his
head hung low as he nibbled on his bottom
lip. He couldn't just sit there and cry. He
needed to search for it. It couldn't
disappear like that. It was impossible. He
grabbed his phone and scrolled through social media especially Twitter, wondering
if there was any problem with YouTube.
Scrolling through the various tweets, a
particular one caught his eyes.
The expression of feeling the heart break
wasn't an exaggeration nor a metaphor.
He felt as if his heart cracked into two,
torn because of the hurt he felt at that
moment. He bit on his lip and placed the
phone down, sniffing slightly and gripped
on the bed sheet tightly. What was even
happening? Even after reading a whole
bunch of tweets he just couldn't believe
it. He knew there were ships but it just hurt him. So much. Jungkook hugged his
knees and started sobbing louder and
louder. He couldn't hold it back anymore.
He felt as if he was suffocating, dying
from the inside. The though of their fans
hating his hyung made him feel sick, to
the extent of hating himself "Its my
fault" he kept muttering and think about
it over and over. Jungkook clutched the
fabric of his shirt and squeezed his eyes
shut. He just couldn't stop. Maybe he
already was hurting and pressured and
needed a reason to cry, maybe he really
hated what he read. And to say the less,
he did hate it.
Jimin looked at Taehyung and sat up
correctly on the member's bed. "Tae?
Didn't you find Kookie creepy? "
Taehyung hummed and thought about it.
"He was never like that....but it reminds
me of those days when he had locked
himself in his studio. " Jimin bit his lip
and got up from bed. "I have a bad
feeling about it. I'll go and check up on
him." Taehyung followed after his best
friend and watched as he knocked on
Jungkook's door and softly called for
him. Taehyung did the same and opened
the door slowly. They were both
expecting lot of scenarios but the one in front of them. Jimin's expression
changed to a pained one, seeing his
little dongsaeng crying. Taehyung
walked to the maknae and immediately
hugged him tightly. Jungkook gripped on
the other's shirt, the new presence
making him remember what he read,
therefore crying harder.
Jimin snapped from his daze and shock
and ran to the bed. He hugged Jungkook
tightly and closed his eyes not to cry
along. He needed to be strong for his
young brother. He bit his lip and caressed
his back. " what happened kookie?" Taehyung asked softly as he stroked the
younger's hair. "I-i didn't find...the
video hyung " he cried "and...." He
sniffed, wiping his tears with the back
of his hands and looked at both his
elders. "I'm sorry..." He trailed off and
looked down, gripping his hair tightly
and thugging on it. "Everything's
because of me. "
Continued!
