Little things

Peaches

I don't think I can truly regress. Even around you. Because I know it's draining to you. And if I regressed fully you would be exhausted. You wouldn't have a chance to catch up. I want to be able to cry and have tantrums and do stupid four year old stuff but I can't because I know you would react badly to it. I can't let you see what I want because it might ruin this. So for now I say nothing, let you think I'm a soft and happy baby when in reality I just want to scream sometimes. Maybe that's why I  take naps so often, if I'm sleeping I can't ruin everything. I love you too much to risk losing you.