One shots

All alone

Warnings: swearing, self harm, depression, suicide attempt, schizophrenia.

Uh so yeah. Kinda gave up on smut? But here's a little depressing brother sister story!

Enjoy
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Athena's POV:

I'm done. I hate everything. Mom and dad are never home anymore, Carsons always with his boyfriend, Tobys always with his boyfriend, Dylans always working. It's always me and the kids.

Yes, I still live with my parents and I have kids. I'm 14, Dylan's 15 lets just say we made a dumb but fun mistake.

It's Oscar, Archie, Charlie, and Adalene's first birthday and I feel like I'm going crazy.

Mom and dad called, said they can't make it and to wish the kids happy birthday.

Noah's stuck filming a few scenes for his new movie "Closed Doors" and Carsons staying with him.

Caden's not feeling well so Toby's taking care of him at his place.

Dylans working a full shift and won't be home until 10.

Guess it's just me and the kids.

I feel so alone.

Time skip 12:45am

No ones home yet-

The voices always get the loudest at this time of night, I need Dylan.

I reach over and grab my phone to text him.

Dylan Athena

                                   Hey... you coming
                                  home soon?

I'm sorry baby, I won't
be home for a little bit

Oh... ok

I love you. Get some rest

I love you too.

Loud. Loud. Loud. They're too loud! Make it go away!

I swore I saw a shadow move past my door. I start rapidly shaking as the voices get louder.

I attempt to call Dylan but he doesn't answer.

I try calling my dad. No answer.

Carson? No answer.

I don't even bother calling Toby, I get up and go to the washroom.

I reach into Dylans things and find a razor.

I haven't done this in a while.

Loneliness is all I feel.

Tears stream down my face as they begin to get louder "DO IT!" They yell "YOU WONT YOU'RE TOO SCARED!" "NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU" "DO IT!" "DYLAN HATES YOU!"

The last one makes me break. He hates me? It makes sense, he's never home anymore and when he is, he ignores me. Always playing video games or talking to friends.

I grab the razor and press it to my skin. I watch, satisfied, as the blood begins pouring out of my wrists.

All of a sudden my phone starts ringing.

Toby.

I ignore it and continue. My phone doesn't stop.

After 10 minutes and check my phone to see 35 missed calls from Dylan, Carson, Dad, and Toby.

I ignore and cut deeper.

After 4 more cuts I look at my texts from Toby.

"Carson just texted me. What's wrong?"
"Athena?"
"Hey"
"Shit face"
"Are you asleep?"
"Are you dead?"
"Yo you're starting to worry me"
"Answer your phone please"
"Damnit Athena answer the fucking phone"
"Hey, let me help. Please"
"Athena Audrey Cross I swear to fucking god if you're doing something to yourself I will pour holy water on you and call you Jesus"
"Please athena just answer"
"I'm coming over"

I check the time he sent his last text 12:58 it's currently 1:05.

I then realize if he wanted to come over, he would have already been here.

I take a quick look at the razor. I still have time.

I take a deep breath and send a message on the family group chat.

"I'm sorry. I love you guys"

I turn my phone off and sigh. I press the razor hard against my skin and start sobbing.

I begin to slowly cut through the skin when the bathroom door burst open.

Toby quickly rushes to my aid, take the razor away from me, and wraps a towel around the cuts.

"Why?" He asks.  His voice sounds so broken. "You should have called. I would have answered. Damnit Athena I would put everything and anything aside just to help you through this, and you know that! You're my sister, I love you. Why didn't you call me" he begins to cry and hugs me to his chest.

I began to speak up "No one else answered me. I thought-"

He quickly cut me off and went "thought what!? You didn't even try to talk to me. I've helped you before, I would have gladly helped you again but you didn't talk to me. Athena you can't do this, you promised everyone you would stop. Did you not think? We're you not thinking of Charlie, Oscar, Archie, and Adalene!? What would they have done without a mom huh? Mother's Day comes around, they're in class and everyone is making a gift for their mom, painting a pretty picture going "I love you mommy!" And what do your kids do? They simply go 'I don't have a mom' when they are hanging out with friends they see them with their mom but where are you? Huh? Oh that's right! You're gone. When they're older, and people ask 'why do you hate your birthday?' they have go 'she took her life on our birthday. It's no longer a happy day but a sad one'. The kids would bury their mom, Sawyer and Brooklyn would bury their daughter, Moragann would bury her best friend, Dylan would bury his girlfriend, Carson would bury his twin, I would bury my sister! Don't you see? You can't do this to us Athena. You can't" his voice cracks towards the end and he begins sobbing.

"I'm sorry" is all I can say.

"Never again." He says firmly.

"Never again" I respond.