Crippled Marinara

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whoops i fell asleep.

LOL JK IM WRITING THIS ON MY COMPUTER

its like 3am. i recorded a 15 minute video of me crying lmao.

unfortunately, this app won't let me post that wonderful event.

but anyways, what happened is...i was watching ship edits, then switched to try not to cry challenges. bitch what was i thinking. that had me crying in less than 45 seconds and i have PROOF.

the only part i remember is i was watching a suicide thing bc that ALWAYS chokes me up *kinky ;)

and so basically i was watching that video and it was right after the girl died and then the commentary girl goes "and thats it. you're gone, you can't come back" or something like that and i turned to the camera, said "tati to james charles" and then repeated it lol. im so funny.

oh yea also. my bf is gone :(

OMG NOT THAT ANYONE FRIGGIN CARES BUT UH heres some tea.

so, flashback to last year. how this whole story started...

remember that summer camp? yeah well its back ;)

unfortunately i couldn't go this year but im going next year to do counsellor training and im hella hype. all my friends are coming with me too so its literally gonna be the best omfg.

okay so, remember a certain rye bread that i may have mentioned having a HUGE ASS CRUSH on?

"Anyways I'm starting to like Rye Bread"

"And Rye Bread was staring at me only when I was onstage."

"That's the last entry on the day June 28th, two days before I left. I've decided that I'll share my Rye Bread memories.

•the very first day I met him:
-it was during a campfire after the second day of the senehawk games. he had lost his voice from screaming at the dance, which I was surprised that my voice wasn't gone because I was screaming harder than anyone. Trust me. It was so funny and we all joked around had a lot of fun.

•playing games with him:
- so this is pretty blatant but we played a lot of table tennis and tetherball (he always won because I'm actually the worst tetherball player). But we also played the slap game and my entire hand was red by the time we finished (I never washed that hand again...jkjk) but he claims to have no feeling in his hands so I decided to test that theory one day and I was just slapping hishand repeatedly and he was smiling down at me because he couldn't feel it."

welllllll...

apparently he liked me too, and now we're dating. i think its been a month? probably less. actually, yea i think its been a month lol.

he's not allowed to have social media so that's why i wasn't in contact with him til this year, my friend's bf (remember graham cracker's friend?) gave me his number and we started fting and texting and then i was told that he liked me and i decided to shoot my shot and i made it straight in hehe.

and today was my last day of talking to him for two weeks and damn i already miss him haha. but he promised me a while ago that we would ft before he left but that didn't happen because his parents took his phone before he left and then he was in the car and couldn't and he felt really bad and then made a new promise that he would go to horse care and riding even more for me to make it up. like boiiii.

and im going to alaska in two days sooooo <3

ALSO WE GET BACK HOME ON THE SAME DAY AND IM SO HAPPY THAT WE WILL BE ABLE TO TALK WHEN WE BOTH GET BACK AND WE DONT HAVE TO WAIT.

ok and im having extreme pains in between my ribs. im dying *shocked emoji along with the laughing emoji*

ohhhhhh i know what it is. i didn't eat dinner.

k byeeeeeeee gorls.