I Will Find You

Chapter 5 - Who is She?

Chapter 5 - Who is she?

September 29 2011

I'm finally in my hotel room! After this crazy weekend. Sleeping in the woods isn't that nice. Well if you got any sleep. At least I didn't. We got back yesterday but it was late so I spent the night at Niall's flat. The boys were debating were I got to spend it but Niall won.

Nobody knows about what happened there, between Harry and I. Just us. I just haven't found the courage to tell the others. And well Harry..I don't know why he hasn't told them yet.

As I was lying in bed, I got a text from Eleanor, we've become so close this past weeks. Eleanor and Louis became official last night. Part of the reason I stayed at Niall's last night. They were all lovey dovey so we decided to give them some space. Harry slept at Zayn's and I went to Niall's. Liam went to Danielle's and passed the night in her place.

In the text she told me that the boys interview was about to air. They had a live interview today and I wasn't working so I decided to watch it.

When the interview I was texting with El, making fun of the boys and laughing at their jokes. The interview was about to end and 'THE' question came.

"Who's single and who's taken?" the interviewer asked.

"Taken!" Louis exclaimed, a bit too excited. I was teasing Eleanor via text while the others answered.

"Me too" Liam added. A smile spread across his face.

"Single" Niall said.

"Same" replied Zayn. I couldn't help but think about Perrie. He's so head over heels for her. It's so cute!

"I'm single" Harry lastly said. And that felt like a pang on my chest. Yes we aren't anything. But I have feelings for him. And he told me he had too. I mean, we shared an amazing night together and he didn't even hesitate to say he was single.

"Really? Cause we have some pictures that say otherwise.." The interviewer, a man in his late 20's? Early's 30? Said. Some pictures of Harry and I appeared. After the camping we were all touchy and stuff and on the pictures we appear holding hands, touching each others face and other stuff. "Who is she?" the interviewer added.

"She's just a really good friend of ours. Nothing's happening between us. She's like a sister"

That did it. But I mean, what was I expecting. For him to declare his love for me on T.V.? That wasn't going to happen. But it hurts so much that he thinks of me as a sister. We had sex for fuck's sake! Siblings don't do that. Is he just playing me? That couldn't be. He's very sweet. At least that's what I thought.

After the interview I decided to stay in the hotel. Since I wasn't doing anything. I invited Eleanor over and right now she was asking a whole bunch of questions.

"Are you guys secretly dating?" She asked about Harry and Me. I don't know. Are we? I don't think so.

"No. Why do you ask?"

"I see the way you look at each other. Is the way I look at Lou. And we are dating" Eleanor stated.

"No. We just share good moments.."

"Have you kissed him?"

"What kind of question is that?" I said chuckling!

"Just answer!!" She's so bossy! But she's the best friend you could've ever had!

"Yes! Gosh! Happy?"

"Aw. I knew it! Just date already!" I wish El. I wish.

"Yeah. No. We are both busy persons. I don't think it would work out".

"Yes it would, love. You can make it work. I know it" She added smiling.

"Yeah if only Harry wanted.." I mumbled under my breath.

"What do you mean?" Whoa. How did she understand it!

"Nothing. Just forget it.."

"Huumm. Just because I'm tired" she said ruffling my hair. I just stick out my tongue at her and we lay in bed, looking at the roof just, thinking.

After our little nap, Eleanor had to go and I was left there, alone with my thoughts. I felt lonely. I just want to go back to my apartment in L.A.! Is that too much to ask? I wish I could bring Eleanor with me. I seriously need her there. Maybe I should start dating, that could be interesting. Someone's who's there for me. I mean, Zayn and I hang out, I even met his sisters. But we are never going to be serious. And my feelings for Harry grow every passed second! This is frustrating! I just wished it didn't take this long to find my lover. I really want to feel loved. And I thought that Harry could finally make me feel that way. I guess I should stop getting excited.

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