"I dont know how far I should keep distance from you"
When I heard that from my Kong , my love, my heart ached. Without telling anything to him I turn around and continued my walk to my room. He entered into my room after me with pained look. I know I hurted him with my silence but I want to end it all today itself. It's better if we continue our talk in our room.
After we settled into bed for sleep I hold his hand and asked "what do you think the reason for my shout at you earlier at restaurant?"
He just looked down but didn't reply but I asked once again.
"Because I showed my love infront of our colleagues"
"No. Not for that. I shouted at you and got angry because you didn't listen to me. I already ate the meatballs which you gave to me but still you continue to give. I denied many times but you didn't understand and keep on insisting.
One thing you have to understand Kong. I may be the person who don't like PDA but I love you and I never embarrassed of it. I love you. I respect and trust you and I expect the same thing from you. I know you love me But do you trust me? Because you didn't even tell me about your work and shifted to another place which is next to me.
I understand that you want to be my side and take care of me but did you thought about my feelings . How do I feel when I come to know about it that my lover didn't even think and found it's necessary to tell me about his whereabouts.
You know everything about me Kong. My work, my place, my free time, my family, friends, work schedule everything. I told you everything about me. but do you? Now only i realized I don't know anything about you apart your love for me. Do you know how I felt at that Time? Unimportant, unwanted and untrustworthy. I was so hurt. I still didn't get over it. When I think about it I realized you didn't trust me enough to share about you. May be I am overthinking about it" I was so hurt and drown into my thoughts that i didn't even know when i start to cry . Some of my tears fall on my hand then only I realized. Before even i wipe my tears kong wiped it and tried to talk. But I continue to talk. I want to tell him everything today. I don't want any misunderstanding between us.
"You thought that I was angry at you for your pda but I am not angry for that. I am angry because you didn't listened and keep on insisting and it made me think that you not even respect my words. That's why I snapped at you without even realizing it that we're in public place and infront of our colleagues. I am so sorry for that and you don't need to distance from me Kong because I loved it . I don't have any problem in it . I was shy so mostly i tried avoid it. may be it's time to change" by saying that I looked at him. He was looking down but he was sobbing silently.I never want to see him like that. I always wish for his happiness but today he is crying because of me. It paints me to see him like that.
I hold his hand and said "look at me Kong " He looked at me and tears are flowing from his eyes. Immediately I wiped it tears and said don't cry Kong. It's not your fault. If anyone is fault then it is mine. I cant make you trust me or in my love. I thought you will understand my love through my gestures. But forgot that you are also human, that You also need some assurance from me verbally sometimes, that You may also want to openly display our love to others"
Kong hugged me tightly and said while crying "don't . Don't say sorry p. It's my fault. I should have told about it before. But p I never want to hide it from you I just waited for correct time but unintentionally I hurted you. I am sorry p. I am really sorry . I didn't thought about your feelings. I should have told about it to you" he started to cry more.
" don't cry Kong. Both are at fault. We should have talked about our feelings and insecurities openly than hide it from each other. It's ok.Better late than never" by saying I kissed his forehead and wiped his tears . He slowly stopped crying. I slowly kissed his eyes.
Kongpop pov:
He kissed my eyes one by one. My breath stuck in my throat. "P what are you doing?" I whispered.
"Me ? Kissing my lover"
I blushed. I love it whenever he show his love openly. But whenever he did that I can't control my heart and desire.i just want to be loved by him, want him to make love to me.but I never asked. May be today my wish may come true. So without thinking I asked "p make love to me. Make me yours. I want to be yours in all sense . Please p"
"Are you sure?"
I nodded.
He immediately start to kiss me passionately. I also kissed him back with same passion. But today i felt different. Usually he used to kiss me back slowly and with little hesitation like he is afraid of something. But today he dominated me . I can feel his love, desire , lust, passion and obsession for me in his kiss . Slowly I loose myself in him that i forgot everything . My mind, heart and soul everything dominate and filled by him. I totally surrendered myself to him.
Arthit pov:
After a long two hours of love making, I let him to sleep. He looks so innocent and cute while sleeping. I moved a little and hugged him tight that even air also can't pass between us. I kissed his forehead.
" I love you Kong. Love you so much that sometimes I am afraid of myself . I just hide my uncontrolled love and desire for you through my shyness. But today you unleashed my desires, lust and love for you. Hope you will not get scared by me , my love and leave me. If you want to leave also i wont let you. Because,
YOU ARE MINE! ONLY MINE!
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