Potterworld x Reader (Discontinued)

This Feeling (Draco Malfoy x Reader)

Story derived from Shattered Identity before 'Catching Up'. 

Please go and read from 'Uh Oh' to 'Catching Up' to avoid too much confusion.

Draco has been avoiding y/n, this is his p.o.v. written like small diary entries.
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I couldn't help but feel guilty. I never meant for y/n to get in trouble. How would I have known that she would be flying off to help Potter? Why does she waste her time on those Gryffindors anyway? If she had just stayed put and stayed on my side instead of defending Longbottom, she would have been fine.

I hope Professor McGonnagal doesn't expel her or anything.

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Apparently she joined the Quidditch team.

I suppose I was worried for nothing, I was happy for her of course. But not only her, but Potter made his team as well.

This wasn't fair, I was surely better than him at flying. First years normally never make the House teams but both of them got in, half thanks to me.

I saw y/n pass by me in the hallways with Potter and Weasley. The three of them happily chattering away about Quidditch. My insides began to boil as I looked at the lot of them. Seeing her smiling away with those two created a strange emotion within me.

What was this feeling?

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Guilt still followed me every time I looked at her. She could have gotten into serious trouble because of me. No matter that nothing bad happened, it could have gone horribly wrong.

And then my parents would be angry with me for putting her education at risk. We had barely been in school for a week and I had already caused y/n trouble.

She seemed to be happy right now, I should probably leave her alone.

Anything to continue seeing that smile on that face.

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One month passes
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Perhaps I had been avoiding her for too long. It has been a month now.

Whenever I saw her in the hallways, or anywhere for that matter, I fled. I felt like a coward for avoiding her but I couldn't help it.

Something inside me clicked whenever I looked at her. The way her h/c hair shined in the sun. How she would scrunch up her nose whenever she ate something strange. Her clever witty comments to the actions of others.

I couldn't stop thinking that she was disappointed in me for taunting Potter or making fun of Longbotton. Why did she care so much?

She was MY fiance. Why couldn't she just focus on me?

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Another month passes
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Two months have now passed. The air was getting colder, and I still had yet to speak to y/n.

She was beginning to practice with the Quidditch team and I desperately wanted to watch. But I couldn't.

I wanted to study with her, but I couldn't.

I wanted to see her smile, hear her laugh. But I couldn't.

She was doing all those things without me, and with that blasted trio from Gryffindor.

When did she get so close with them?
Why hasn't she approached me yet? Did she not miss me?

People in our own House were starting to make rude comments and rumors about her. There were many times I wanted to interject in her defense, but the image I had created for myself would be shattered. The Malfoy name must be carried with pride, and I would not allow something like this get in our way.