Soaked In Blood ( Jastin )

~ 03 ~

" Where's Tyler?" I put the two mugs of cappuccino down on Tyler's office table. Mr McCann looks up from his phone and gives me a heart warming smile. " He went out for something. I think his dad wanted to talk to him. "

  " Oh, I didn't see him leaving" I smile with a confused look, sitting on Tyler's chair.

  " Fighting with girls, I see" he smirks and looks at his phone. I peek in to see a post about Taylor Swift and me on Instagram. I blush. " I didn't mean to fight. She just used my photo and I had to tell her to not take it to social media. "

  " She used your photo? Why?"

  " I joked her and she thinks Scooter told me to do that. It was just a joke, I swear! Scooter told me not to do that but I got mad because she blamed Scooter for it. "

   He laughs as if it's nothing. " What's the joke?"

  " I went live with Scooter and some other friends and I think I screenshot the video and posted on Instagram captioning ' Taylor Swift what up' a few years ago." I said shamefully. I was such an stupid boy. I didn't mean to hurt her but apparently it has hurt her.

  " That's it?"

" That's about it" I nod.

   " All this drama for that?" He asks, with wide eyes. " I thought you did something serious"

  " Well I apologized for the post and told her not to take it to social media. Her fans are mad at me for that"

  " People nowadays" he laughs. " What the fuck? How do you put up with delusional people like this?"

  " Don't say that. I was wrong" I frown, feeling ashamed but I have to own up to my mistakes.

  " Why do you always put yourself down?" This time he sounds serious. I look at him to see him staring at me with pity.

   " You don't know what I've done. You wouldn't say that if you know what kind of a terrible person I really am."

   " I'd like to know what kind of a terrible person you really are"

  I look away irritated. He's annoying.

  " I'm really bad"

  " Explain"

  I sigh in annoyance. " I've used drugs"

  " I've used drugs too. Are you addicted?"

  " No.. but I almost got addicted"

  " Normally people think people who use drugs are victims. Not criminals" he says.

  " It's wrong. I didn't have to use drugs but I did. The pressure was too much and my girlfriend wanted me to be a 'man' and all this stuff got to my head and messed me up. I'm not trying to make excuses for everything I did but I'm human too, you know?"

  " You got over it, didn't you? "

" Yeah but-"

  " But? It's not easy to get over drugs, Justin. I know it because I've used it. You're a great person and a fighter, you got over drugs because you're wise and realized that drugs aren't going to help, but hurt you more. The next horrible thing you've done?"

  I felt a little proud of myself but I still have done badder things. " I got Selena to use drugs too"

  " What?"

  " She asked and we used drugs together."

  " Isn't she older than you?"

" Yeah but -"